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that is all.
Westie<3
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
The Worry is Gone.
My God, Oh God
Your spirit fills my soul, you help me in times of trouble
You help see that when something is wrong
You are there.
You help me see that You are always there.
Thank you for taking the worry off of me.
You are so very amazing.
Thank you again.
God You are amazing.
Show others the same victory that you have shown me.
That is all.
Westie<3
Your spirit fills my soul, you help me in times of trouble
You help see that when something is wrong
You are there.
You help me see that You are always there.
Thank you for taking the worry off of me.
You are so very amazing.
Thank you again.
God You are amazing.
Show others the same victory that you have shown me.
That is all.
Westie<3
I Don't Know
I’m worried and scared
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m paranoid, and I am worried
and I feel so retarded
I am finished with this nonsense.
I am done playing this game.
I tried so hard, and I don’t think I should have invested my time.
God help me, I need help now, give me the strength, and the power to get through this.
Because I am guarding my heart from now on. Here I go.
Thank you.
that is all.
Westie<3
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m paranoid, and I am worried
and I feel so retarded
I am finished with this nonsense.
I am done playing this game.
I tried so hard, and I don’t think I should have invested my time.
God help me, I need help now, give me the strength, and the power to get through this.
Because I am guarding my heart from now on. Here I go.
Thank you.
that is all.
Westie<3
I Don't Know
I’m worried and scared
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m paranoid, and I am worried
and I feel so retarded
I am finished with this nonsense.
I am done playing this game.
I tried so hard, and I don’t think I should have invested my time.
God help me, I need help now, give me the strength, and the power to get through this.
Because I am guarding my heart from now on. Here I go.
Thank you.
that is all.
Westie<3
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m paranoid, and I am worried
and I feel so retarded
I am finished with this nonsense.
I am done playing this game.
I tried so hard, and I don’t think I should have invested my time.
God help me, I need help now, give me the strength, and the power to get through this.
Because I am guarding my heart from now on. Here I go.
Thank you.
that is all.
Westie<3
Often.
Often people think that my life is perfect.
I tend to disagree with this fact.
You know how when you see someone extremely beautiful you automatically think, wow, they have their life completely together. When in reality they are struggling with a disease, or bulimia, or some sort of depression.
Things are not always as they appear.
Like me for example. I often put on a good show to make it seem like my life is good. I have been told that I am one of the happiest people that someone will every meet. Well you know what? Yes. I am happy, but you know what else? I have issues too.
I am terrified right now. You have no idea. My mother is not all that well, she is dealing with a great amount of pain all throughout her body. She has issues with her foot, her hands, her internal, you name it. And I have no idea how she is making it through. I don't even know how long she will be able to stand. Her pain in her foot is so bad, she is afraid that she won't be able to walk within the next year.
What scares me even more is that my poppy ( her father) died at age 70. My mum is close to 60, which means that if her symptoms continue, I could lose her. and I can't live without my mother. There is no way.
I am so scared. I put on a front,I try to help everyone with their problems, and I do, I have helped so many people through so much. But in reality, I need help too but I don't want help, I want to be able to face these hard times so in the end, if someone else is struggling, I will be able to help them in the same way.
My mum needs to overcome this. She is a strong woman with much faith. She believes in God, he is her saviour. And now she needs his help more than anything else. I often wonder if I am why she is not getting better. But then I realize that it is just satan trying to get into my head and ruin my thoughts. He wants me to blame God. But no matter what, I will not.
Because I know God can, and will heal my mother. She has so much left to do in her life.
This is where I do one of the bravest things I have ever done.
I am asking for prayer. Prayer from anyone who reads this blog, prayers from anyone who cares. God will answer. Please tell your friends to pray for my mother.
The next time you assume perfection, think of this blog. And whether you like it or not, everyone has problems, and everyone needs prayer. So rather than send a look of jealously to a person, or feelings of envy or hate. Pray instead, and see the amazing ways that God works.
God Bless You All.
Jesus loves you, and so do I.
that is all.
Westie<3
I tend to disagree with this fact.
You know how when you see someone extremely beautiful you automatically think, wow, they have their life completely together. When in reality they are struggling with a disease, or bulimia, or some sort of depression.
Things are not always as they appear.
Like me for example. I often put on a good show to make it seem like my life is good. I have been told that I am one of the happiest people that someone will every meet. Well you know what? Yes. I am happy, but you know what else? I have issues too.
I am terrified right now. You have no idea. My mother is not all that well, she is dealing with a great amount of pain all throughout her body. She has issues with her foot, her hands, her internal, you name it. And I have no idea how she is making it through. I don't even know how long she will be able to stand. Her pain in her foot is so bad, she is afraid that she won't be able to walk within the next year.
What scares me even more is that my poppy ( her father) died at age 70. My mum is close to 60, which means that if her symptoms continue, I could lose her. and I can't live without my mother. There is no way.
I am so scared. I put on a front,I try to help everyone with their problems, and I do, I have helped so many people through so much. But in reality, I need help too but I don't want help, I want to be able to face these hard times so in the end, if someone else is struggling, I will be able to help them in the same way.
My mum needs to overcome this. She is a strong woman with much faith. She believes in God, he is her saviour. And now she needs his help more than anything else. I often wonder if I am why she is not getting better. But then I realize that it is just satan trying to get into my head and ruin my thoughts. He wants me to blame God. But no matter what, I will not.
Because I know God can, and will heal my mother. She has so much left to do in her life.
This is where I do one of the bravest things I have ever done.
I am asking for prayer. Prayer from anyone who reads this blog, prayers from anyone who cares. God will answer. Please tell your friends to pray for my mother.
The next time you assume perfection, think of this blog. And whether you like it or not, everyone has problems, and everyone needs prayer. So rather than send a look of jealously to a person, or feelings of envy or hate. Pray instead, and see the amazing ways that God works.
God Bless You All.
Jesus loves you, and so do I.
that is all.
Westie<3
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Thinking... Oh No
I was just thinking
What if I had chosen a different path earlier on
What if I hadn't kept my morals
Would I be who I am today?
Or would I hate the person I had become.
Would I have different friends?
Would I be in a different place?
Or would I be incomplete?
Would I change someones life...
Would I make someone cry
Would I just want to ... die?
No.
No.
No.
My life lived today, the the path I chose
Sure, there has been ups and downs,
but just the same, I would not have my life, any...other... way.
Because my path and God, is what made me...
ME.
That is all.
Westie<3
What if I had chosen a different path earlier on
What if I hadn't kept my morals
Would I be who I am today?
Or would I hate the person I had become.
Would I have different friends?
Would I be in a different place?
Or would I be incomplete?
Would I change someones life...
Would I make someone cry
Would I just want to ... die?
No.
No.
No.
My life lived today, the the path I chose
Sure, there has been ups and downs,
but just the same, I would not have my life, any...other... way.
Because my path and God, is what made me...
ME.
That is all.
Westie<3
Family
I have kept my promise and am writing about something I am thankful for 1 month
Today, being Thanksgiving I spent a great deal of time with my family.
That is what I want to express my thanks to this particular day.
God has given me one of the most amazing families in the entire world.
My immediate family consists of my mother, my father and myself. My brother recently moved back home ( 2 years ago) and brought his wife with him. Together they have two children, and they are the joy of my life.
I grew up more or less an only child because both of my brothers lived far away. For this reason, I spent a lot of time with my Dad's brother's children. What a blessing ( and while I was younger, a curse haha ) they have been to me.
Growing up, I had this bond with those 5 boys in my family that I will never be able to replace. Sure, I was teased an tortured to no end, but through all that I knew that they loved me.
I went to my Uncle and Aunt's house tonight for Thanksgiving dinner, and it felt like it always does, like home. These people have cared for me since day one, this is because we are a family, and without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.
You see, God blessed me with this family because he knew that without them I could not be strong, I could not be able, and I would not be me. Without my amazing family, I wouldn't be able to face another day.
I am incredibly thankful that God created these amazing people in my family.
Thanks God
You always know what's best for us, although it may not seem it at times.
That is all.
Westie<3
Today, being Thanksgiving I spent a great deal of time with my family.
That is what I want to express my thanks to this particular day.
God has given me one of the most amazing families in the entire world.
My immediate family consists of my mother, my father and myself. My brother recently moved back home ( 2 years ago) and brought his wife with him. Together they have two children, and they are the joy of my life.
I grew up more or less an only child because both of my brothers lived far away. For this reason, I spent a lot of time with my Dad's brother's children. What a blessing ( and while I was younger, a curse haha ) they have been to me.
Growing up, I had this bond with those 5 boys in my family that I will never be able to replace. Sure, I was teased an tortured to no end, but through all that I knew that they loved me.
I went to my Uncle and Aunt's house tonight for Thanksgiving dinner, and it felt like it always does, like home. These people have cared for me since day one, this is because we are a family, and without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.
You see, God blessed me with this family because he knew that without them I could not be strong, I could not be able, and I would not be me. Without my amazing family, I wouldn't be able to face another day.
I am incredibly thankful that God created these amazing people in my family.
Thanks God
You always know what's best for us, although it may not seem it at times.
That is all.
Westie<3
Friday, October 8, 2010
Answers.
Wow. Just Wow.
I don't think I have been able to properly breathe the past week and a half.
SO much has happened all at one time!! I can hardly believe it.
Seriously, I don't know if my life could be anymore crazy.
This week alone, I was running for first year rep, I was writing numerous papers, I was exercising, I was keeping up with my family, I was teaching sunday school, I was studying, I was reading,I was keeping up with friends, I was LIVING.
It was just plain insanity! I can't actually believe that I made it through this week, and to be honest, the past few weeks without burning out completely.
Fortunately for me, it is Thanksgiving here is Canada this weekend, so I have time to totally veg. My parents are going away on saturday to the island, I am going to have a chance to recuperate from this week of just plain insanity.
BUT
The good thing here is, I finished an insane amount of work, I passed about 50098604763073476 papers, I feel so healthy and happy from exercising, and I am all around just enjoying life period. Life is good, and so is God.
I read a really interesting quote today it said “Were there no God, we would be in this glorious world with grateful hearts: and no one to thank”. This was quote is from Christina Rossetti, and how true is this?
Where would we be in this world if there was no God?
Well, I can tell you one thing.
We wouldn't be here. Period.
How often to we look on this amazing world we are living in and just look at all the negative? I know that when it rains sometimes I often find myself saying " Man, I wish it would stop raining" and as soon as it stops raining I catch myself saying " It it WAY too hot out here, where is the rain when we need it".
There is such beauty surrounding us, like, think about all the grains of sand, all of the grass on the ground, all of the dirt, the clouds the sky, the trees, the flowers, the list goes on. We all take advantage of it, and it makes me sad.
I went for a walk the other day with a guy I am currently dating, and I don't think I really noticed the amazing pieces of God's creation surrounding me. I mean, I see it all the time, why would I ?
It's hard, trust me I understand, but as I think about it more and more, I realize that I myself need to observe, and take note, and appreciate what God has created so much more.
Thank is my goal from now on. Every two days, I will write a blog expressing one thing that I find so very amazing that God has created and why.
I love you all
That is all.
Westie<3
I don't think I have been able to properly breathe the past week and a half.
SO much has happened all at one time!! I can hardly believe it.
Seriously, I don't know if my life could be anymore crazy.
This week alone, I was running for first year rep, I was writing numerous papers, I was exercising, I was keeping up with my family, I was teaching sunday school, I was studying, I was reading,I was keeping up with friends, I was LIVING.
It was just plain insanity! I can't actually believe that I made it through this week, and to be honest, the past few weeks without burning out completely.
Fortunately for me, it is Thanksgiving here is Canada this weekend, so I have time to totally veg. My parents are going away on saturday to the island, I am going to have a chance to recuperate from this week of just plain insanity.
BUT
The good thing here is, I finished an insane amount of work, I passed about 50098604763073476 papers, I feel so healthy and happy from exercising, and I am all around just enjoying life period. Life is good, and so is God.
I read a really interesting quote today it said “Were there no God, we would be in this glorious world with grateful hearts: and no one to thank”. This was quote is from Christina Rossetti, and how true is this?
Where would we be in this world if there was no God?
Well, I can tell you one thing.
We wouldn't be here. Period.
How often to we look on this amazing world we are living in and just look at all the negative? I know that when it rains sometimes I often find myself saying " Man, I wish it would stop raining" and as soon as it stops raining I catch myself saying " It it WAY too hot out here, where is the rain when we need it".
There is such beauty surrounding us, like, think about all the grains of sand, all of the grass on the ground, all of the dirt, the clouds the sky, the trees, the flowers, the list goes on. We all take advantage of it, and it makes me sad.
I went for a walk the other day with a guy I am currently dating, and I don't think I really noticed the amazing pieces of God's creation surrounding me. I mean, I see it all the time, why would I ?
It's hard, trust me I understand, but as I think about it more and more, I realize that I myself need to observe, and take note, and appreciate what God has created so much more.
Thank is my goal from now on. Every two days, I will write a blog expressing one thing that I find so very amazing that God has created and why.
I love you all
That is all.
Westie<3
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Unknown
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
~ Unknown
~ Unknown
Life's Lessons Never Stop
Have you ever had a point in your life where you questioned something even though you really didn't want to?
Well, that happened to me last evening. But that's not the exact direction that I am heading in today.
Today I want to talk about life's lessons.
Last night I learned that you have to trust no matter how convincing a person you hardly knows argument may be. Last night my feelings were in a way hurt, and I felt hurt to think that someone would say something to more or less just get a reaction out of me, and that really bothered me. A lot, because I put something special on the line to listen to this obvious liar.
Thankfully, my inner sense of worry did not even show in this incident, which to me, shows whether or not this person told the truth or not.
And my gut what thankfully saying that this was untrue, and that everything was fine. Just as I wanted to believe, and just as I believe now.
As humans, day by day we learn something. Just like that expression " we learn something new everyday " . How true is that?
You may not always notice that you have learned something, you may not even want to realize it. But if you look back on the past two weeks, just think about how much has changed for yourself, how much has gone through your unconscious mind.
Amazing isn't it?
You learn what someone likes, what they done, you learn which place at home is the warmest, or what you notice about your appearance. You learn a song, a new word, an expression. What you learn is endless, and for that reason we are so blessed.
But at the same time, sometimes you just don't want to learn some of those life lessons. I believe that comment is self explanatory.
Westie<3
Well, that happened to me last evening. But that's not the exact direction that I am heading in today.
Today I want to talk about life's lessons.
Last night I learned that you have to trust no matter how convincing a person you hardly knows argument may be. Last night my feelings were in a way hurt, and I felt hurt to think that someone would say something to more or less just get a reaction out of me, and that really bothered me. A lot, because I put something special on the line to listen to this obvious liar.
Thankfully, my inner sense of worry did not even show in this incident, which to me, shows whether or not this person told the truth or not.
And my gut what thankfully saying that this was untrue, and that everything was fine. Just as I wanted to believe, and just as I believe now.
As humans, day by day we learn something. Just like that expression " we learn something new everyday " . How true is that?
You may not always notice that you have learned something, you may not even want to realize it. But if you look back on the past two weeks, just think about how much has changed for yourself, how much has gone through your unconscious mind.
Amazing isn't it?
You learn what someone likes, what they done, you learn which place at home is the warmest, or what you notice about your appearance. You learn a song, a new word, an expression. What you learn is endless, and for that reason we are so blessed.
But at the same time, sometimes you just don't want to learn some of those life lessons. I believe that comment is self explanatory.
Westie<3
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Happiness
I am a person who always has desired happiness.
I look for in in friendship, relationships, and in life itself. But somehow, I able never able to ever find happiness successfully.
But lately, something in me has clicked, it's as if I have never had a bad, and it is as if nothing can ever go wrong. And I believe that there are various reasons as to why I am so freaking happy these days.
One, would have to be university. I don't know what I would have done if I had to face another year of high school. It is just so juvenile and it is like everyone's goal is to just be mean, spread around gossip all the time. It always used to bother me so much, and I am so very glad I am no longer dealing with that kind of nonsense.
University has also lead to some of the most amazing experiences of my entire life. I have met so many people, and have done so many crazy things that I can hardly even believe it. I have raced around, worked like a maniac, and learned to multi task like a pro. I have made time, fought time, and gave time all to do what I love in my life.
Two would have to be the relationships that I have already made. I don't know if I could possibly be surviving university without some of the friendships that I have maintained over the past few weeks. Some of which I know I will never forget.
Three, would definitely have to be some of the things that I have left behind and moved on from. I don't think that if I hadn't left some of the baggage behind, I wouldn't be where I am today with such joy. You all know about the friendship that went to very wrong for me just a short time ago, well, about a month ago, I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years. And to be honest, it was one of the best things I have ever done in my life.
I think near the end I felt more sorry for him, we weren't on the same level of thinking, and to be honest, I was more comfortable just "being" in the relationship than actually wanted to. Now that I am "free" per say things have already changed. I am able to go through my life now and not be afraid to talk to certain people in fears that someone will get jealous or made. I'm not afraid to be myself anymore because I know that people love me for me, and I no longer have to pretend to be someone I'm not. I was feeling trapped, but now, I am happy, happy to be me, to like who I am, and to want to improve upon things in myself to make myself a better person and to grow even more in myself.
Because you never know what God is planning for your tomorrow.
The fourth and final thing that has made a difference in my life is God. He has showed me that through being me, I can reach other people, he showed me through my prayers to him, some of the choices I have made as late. I am extremely thankful that I have that relationship with God, to help me get through the day, it is an ultimate blessing.
Happiness is hard to find, but once you are there, life never seems better.
That is all.
Westie<3
I look for in in friendship, relationships, and in life itself. But somehow, I able never able to ever find happiness successfully.
But lately, something in me has clicked, it's as if I have never had a bad, and it is as if nothing can ever go wrong. And I believe that there are various reasons as to why I am so freaking happy these days.
One, would have to be university. I don't know what I would have done if I had to face another year of high school. It is just so juvenile and it is like everyone's goal is to just be mean, spread around gossip all the time. It always used to bother me so much, and I am so very glad I am no longer dealing with that kind of nonsense.
University has also lead to some of the most amazing experiences of my entire life. I have met so many people, and have done so many crazy things that I can hardly even believe it. I have raced around, worked like a maniac, and learned to multi task like a pro. I have made time, fought time, and gave time all to do what I love in my life.
Two would have to be the relationships that I have already made. I don't know if I could possibly be surviving university without some of the friendships that I have maintained over the past few weeks. Some of which I know I will never forget.
Three, would definitely have to be some of the things that I have left behind and moved on from. I don't think that if I hadn't left some of the baggage behind, I wouldn't be where I am today with such joy. You all know about the friendship that went to very wrong for me just a short time ago, well, about a month ago, I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years. And to be honest, it was one of the best things I have ever done in my life.
I think near the end I felt more sorry for him, we weren't on the same level of thinking, and to be honest, I was more comfortable just "being" in the relationship than actually wanted to. Now that I am "free" per say things have already changed. I am able to go through my life now and not be afraid to talk to certain people in fears that someone will get jealous or made. I'm not afraid to be myself anymore because I know that people love me for me, and I no longer have to pretend to be someone I'm not. I was feeling trapped, but now, I am happy, happy to be me, to like who I am, and to want to improve upon things in myself to make myself a better person and to grow even more in myself.
Because you never know what God is planning for your tomorrow.
The fourth and final thing that has made a difference in my life is God. He has showed me that through being me, I can reach other people, he showed me through my prayers to him, some of the choices I have made as late. I am extremely thankful that I have that relationship with God, to help me get through the day, it is an ultimate blessing.
Happiness is hard to find, but once you are there, life never seems better.
That is all.
Westie<3
Monday, September 13, 2010
Life Keeps on Rolling
Oh my goodness
I am a full blown university student...
AND I LOVE IT WITH MY ENTIRE LIFE!
The amount of change that has taken place in this past month, and end of last month is actually extraordinary!
I can hardly believe what I have done with my life in such a short amount of time.
As you all known, I am a Christian, and I since camp my walk has been even stronger as I have mentioned in just the past fews blogs I have written. God has recently told me to make some choices, and clearly, they have been the right ones. I won't go into detail, but a lot of things have changed with my thoughts recently, and I am very glad. I am glad because of the opportunities that have come out of it. And boy, am I thankful.
I was feeling trapped for a while, trapped within myself. Trapped in some of the relationships that I have been have with different people, and that just wasn't working for me. I was often found to be in a depressed state of mind, and feeling as if the feeling wouldn't go away.
At that point I realized that I had to fix this problem, but the issue was that I didn't know what the problem was, and that scared me a bit. As the days went by God revealed the problem to me, and I realized that I would have to make a change and fast. I couldn't handle university with what I was dealing with.
More or less my problem was i was unsure about things and I didn't like it. I had been expressing something that hadn't been feeling in months, since at least May, and I think that was one of my problems. I needed to change things, fortunately , my heart had moved on months before I actually made my choice of what to do.
Now I am happy. I am pleased to say after months and months of sadness things have improved, and I am once again happy with who I am. I have made new friend, grown up, and went my own way. It was awesome , and it has been awesome.
What a life I have but hey! I am not complaining because I have been so blessed with so many things, and it is just great how one amazing person can reveal so much to one child out of billions.
That is all,
Westie<3
who needs one eyebrow?:)
I am a full blown university student...
AND I LOVE IT WITH MY ENTIRE LIFE!
The amount of change that has taken place in this past month, and end of last month is actually extraordinary!
I can hardly believe what I have done with my life in such a short amount of time.
As you all known, I am a Christian, and I since camp my walk has been even stronger as I have mentioned in just the past fews blogs I have written. God has recently told me to make some choices, and clearly, they have been the right ones. I won't go into detail, but a lot of things have changed with my thoughts recently, and I am very glad. I am glad because of the opportunities that have come out of it. And boy, am I thankful.
I was feeling trapped for a while, trapped within myself. Trapped in some of the relationships that I have been have with different people, and that just wasn't working for me. I was often found to be in a depressed state of mind, and feeling as if the feeling wouldn't go away.
At that point I realized that I had to fix this problem, but the issue was that I didn't know what the problem was, and that scared me a bit. As the days went by God revealed the problem to me, and I realized that I would have to make a change and fast. I couldn't handle university with what I was dealing with.
More or less my problem was i was unsure about things and I didn't like it. I had been expressing something that hadn't been feeling in months, since at least May, and I think that was one of my problems. I needed to change things, fortunately , my heart had moved on months before I actually made my choice of what to do.
Now I am happy. I am pleased to say after months and months of sadness things have improved, and I am once again happy with who I am. I have made new friend, grown up, and went my own way. It was awesome , and it has been awesome.
What a life I have but hey! I am not complaining because I have been so blessed with so many things, and it is just great how one amazing person can reveal so much to one child out of billions.
That is all,
Westie<3
who needs one eyebrow?:)
Friday, September 3, 2010
Time Does Change Things- And So Does the Power of God
Wow.
holy moses, sweet niblets, mother of all that's holy and good, mother lickin' chicken, what the heck..
You all obviously get my point..
My day today, well, let's just say, didn't start off all that pleasant...
I was feeling extremely down, and to be honest, I'm not sure what it was exactly... and I'm still not sure.
I have times where I don't feel like myself, and I guess today was one of those day, because man... everything was hitting me hard, everything was upsetting me, everything was just feeling like AHHH GET ME OUT OF HERE.
That's how I felt, and that's how I spent almost my entire friday morning/ afternoon feeling... and it sucked. Hardcore.
Everything seemed to touch me the wrong way. On the way to work this morning I "felt" that my mum was over evaluating me, that she kept pushing me to do things.
When I got to work, I felt insanely sick, and I was just so tired, and so agitated, I had a hard time staring at the computer screen, entering data into the computer-- copy, paste repeat, copy, paste, repeat, copy, paste, repeat. Endless, endless, endless.
I suddenly became overwhelmed with everything. A familiar song called "For Good" from the musical Wicked cam onto my Ipod.
I don't always listen to lyrics of a song very well, I just happen to listen a few times and just sing along within a few times of playing the song. For Good is one of my recent favourites, and I just learned it like I would any other song. But today something happened, I took the time, sat there, staring at the wall and listened.
And here is what I heard--
"'Ive heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good "
Let me just tell you, that my eyes quickly became filled with tears. I thought of everything. The friendship lost, the relationships, the hardships, the messes I had gotten myself into. All of it, EVERYTHING. And I couldn't hold back. I sat for a while, and I just thought. If only something right now could go right... anything, I would take it as a sign from God to say- "Sharilyn I am here everything is alright, and you are not alone".
I never thought the message would come through. I got home, and tried to enjoy myself, because for now I am done work, but something was still holding on to my heart and just dragging me down.
After supper had finished, and everything was said and done, everyone was relaxing, and I was fixing my Itunes up. When suddenly my ex soggie pops up on facebook chat.
This was the second time that it had happened and I was like- "oh no.. just what I need right now honestly, another worry added to the list". But as it turned out, it wasn't a worry at all.
He apologized.
I was ABSOLUTELY shocked. Never in a million years would I have expected that to happen. Ever.
But it did.
And there was one thing that made that happen, and that thing happened to be God.
People grow up yes, but they don't just happen to grow up on their own, its not only the path that they have chosen or the lessons that they have given themselves that make them grow up.
It's not only that.
It's also God.
You see, God has changed me-- I wasn't always this nice girl. I had a bout of depression for the longest time, and it took me a while to get over. I was messed up after my ex and I broke up... I didn't know what to think. One thing reached out to me though, and that thing was God. Without him, I would not be the way I am today, nor would I be here period. Time changes people yes. But so, does the power of God.
That is all.
Westie<3
holy moses, sweet niblets, mother of all that's holy and good, mother lickin' chicken, what the heck..
You all obviously get my point..
My day today, well, let's just say, didn't start off all that pleasant...
I was feeling extremely down, and to be honest, I'm not sure what it was exactly... and I'm still not sure.
I have times where I don't feel like myself, and I guess today was one of those day, because man... everything was hitting me hard, everything was upsetting me, everything was just feeling like AHHH GET ME OUT OF HERE.
That's how I felt, and that's how I spent almost my entire friday morning/ afternoon feeling... and it sucked. Hardcore.
Everything seemed to touch me the wrong way. On the way to work this morning I "felt" that my mum was over evaluating me, that she kept pushing me to do things.
When I got to work, I felt insanely sick, and I was just so tired, and so agitated, I had a hard time staring at the computer screen, entering data into the computer-- copy, paste repeat, copy, paste, repeat, copy, paste, repeat. Endless, endless, endless.
I suddenly became overwhelmed with everything. A familiar song called "For Good" from the musical Wicked cam onto my Ipod.
I don't always listen to lyrics of a song very well, I just happen to listen a few times and just sing along within a few times of playing the song. For Good is one of my recent favourites, and I just learned it like I would any other song. But today something happened, I took the time, sat there, staring at the wall and listened.
And here is what I heard--
"'Ive heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good "
Let me just tell you, that my eyes quickly became filled with tears. I thought of everything. The friendship lost, the relationships, the hardships, the messes I had gotten myself into. All of it, EVERYTHING. And I couldn't hold back. I sat for a while, and I just thought. If only something right now could go right... anything, I would take it as a sign from God to say- "Sharilyn I am here everything is alright, and you are not alone".
I never thought the message would come through. I got home, and tried to enjoy myself, because for now I am done work, but something was still holding on to my heart and just dragging me down.
After supper had finished, and everything was said and done, everyone was relaxing, and I was fixing my Itunes up. When suddenly my ex soggie pops up on facebook chat.
This was the second time that it had happened and I was like- "oh no.. just what I need right now honestly, another worry added to the list". But as it turned out, it wasn't a worry at all.
He apologized.
I was ABSOLUTELY shocked. Never in a million years would I have expected that to happen. Ever.
But it did.
And there was one thing that made that happen, and that thing happened to be God.
People grow up yes, but they don't just happen to grow up on their own, its not only the path that they have chosen or the lessons that they have given themselves that make them grow up.
It's not only that.
It's also God.
You see, God has changed me-- I wasn't always this nice girl. I had a bout of depression for the longest time, and it took me a while to get over. I was messed up after my ex and I broke up... I didn't know what to think. One thing reached out to me though, and that thing was God. Without him, I would not be the way I am today, nor would I be here period. Time changes people yes. But so, does the power of God.
That is all.
Westie<3
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Miserable, yet Happy
Have you ever had a day where you felt just plain miserable?
That nothing in the entire world can cheer you up?
Well my friends, that happened to me last evening/ today.
I dwell on things like it is nobody's business.
And man oh man does it ever mess me up.
I personally, worry about, my problems, my friend's problems, the world's problems and everything in between. And let's be honest, I do it all the time, and it practically rips my heart straight out of my chest everytime.
And another thing you may not know, is that I am always trying to bear everyone else's problems as well as my own, in effort for them not to feel as much pain.
Now, as you all know from past blogs, I have lost a friend over this past year. And it really has changed my life.
Not only am I super super super super super careful what I tell people, because of past events I have major trust issues.
Last night, after all the kids had left camp, I decided to have hardcore heart to heart with my best friend and a guy so close to me I call him my brother.
Now McGillivary and I only met last summer, but we seem to have a simple understanding with eachother. He is there for me, no matter what, and I am there for him in the same way. we have only been friends for about a year now, but when it comes to McGillivary, he has a certain air about him that makes me know that I am able to trust him.
Last night, we started talking because as soon as everyone had left, I felt a sense of loss, and of sadness, which to me, was unexplainable. Or so I thought.
This however was easily proved wrong by my brother.
We talked some casual funny stuff first, while the guitar music of a friend lingered in the background, lulling us deeper into conversation.
First came up the topic of the lost friend, and to be honest, I lost it. McGillivary hugged me, and just told me it was okay, and that everything was fine. To be honest, I couldn't have asked for anything better in that situation.
The second topic was even more touchy for me... imagine.
Let's get a bit of background on the second topic before I continue.
I had one huge of an idiot of a boyfriend before my now current boyfriend. He was... interesting, and was pretty much a huge jerk and anyway, I haven't really seen/ talked to him for at least 3 years ( my choice indefinitely).
I worked at camp this week, as you may have read in my previous blog, he randomly showed up on thrusday night. I was freaking out. I told all my friends ( mostly the guys) and more or less, didn't leave McGillivary's side the entire evening.
McGillivary in fact was practicing his throwing against a tree, and it made my day, in fact my whole.
The second topic was in fact my ex, we didn't date for very long, but I tell you it was a screwed up thing, and I am glad that I have grown up so much since that time.
Never had I really really cried about this screwed up relationship. But McGillivary sat there and listened. He heard me out, he understood what I was feeling. And that to me, was a real gift.
I never realized how amazing it is to have a friend who truly understands you.
I never thought that after the loss of such a good and close friend, I would have an even better friendship. But you know what, I do.
I am actually glad that I became miserable for that time, because it made me even more thankful for what I have, who I have become, and who I will become in the future.
That is all.
Westie <3
That nothing in the entire world can cheer you up?
Well my friends, that happened to me last evening/ today.
I dwell on things like it is nobody's business.
And man oh man does it ever mess me up.
I personally, worry about, my problems, my friend's problems, the world's problems and everything in between. And let's be honest, I do it all the time, and it practically rips my heart straight out of my chest everytime.
And another thing you may not know, is that I am always trying to bear everyone else's problems as well as my own, in effort for them not to feel as much pain.
Now, as you all know from past blogs, I have lost a friend over this past year. And it really has changed my life.
Not only am I super super super super super careful what I tell people, because of past events I have major trust issues.
Last night, after all the kids had left camp, I decided to have hardcore heart to heart with my best friend and a guy so close to me I call him my brother.
Now McGillivary and I only met last summer, but we seem to have a simple understanding with eachother. He is there for me, no matter what, and I am there for him in the same way. we have only been friends for about a year now, but when it comes to McGillivary, he has a certain air about him that makes me know that I am able to trust him.
Last night, we started talking because as soon as everyone had left, I felt a sense of loss, and of sadness, which to me, was unexplainable. Or so I thought.
This however was easily proved wrong by my brother.
We talked some casual funny stuff first, while the guitar music of a friend lingered in the background, lulling us deeper into conversation.
First came up the topic of the lost friend, and to be honest, I lost it. McGillivary hugged me, and just told me it was okay, and that everything was fine. To be honest, I couldn't have asked for anything better in that situation.
The second topic was even more touchy for me... imagine.
Let's get a bit of background on the second topic before I continue.
I had one huge of an idiot of a boyfriend before my now current boyfriend. He was... interesting, and was pretty much a huge jerk and anyway, I haven't really seen/ talked to him for at least 3 years ( my choice indefinitely).
I worked at camp this week, as you may have read in my previous blog, he randomly showed up on thrusday night. I was freaking out. I told all my friends ( mostly the guys) and more or less, didn't leave McGillivary's side the entire evening.
McGillivary in fact was practicing his throwing against a tree, and it made my day, in fact my whole.
The second topic was in fact my ex, we didn't date for very long, but I tell you it was a screwed up thing, and I am glad that I have grown up so much since that time.
Never had I really really cried about this screwed up relationship. But McGillivary sat there and listened. He heard me out, he understood what I was feeling. And that to me, was a real gift.
I never realized how amazing it is to have a friend who truly understands you.
I never thought that after the loss of such a good and close friend, I would have an even better friendship. But you know what, I do.
I am actually glad that I became miserable for that time, because it made me even more thankful for what I have, who I have become, and who I will become in the future.
That is all.
Westie <3
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Not Knowing.
I always thought I knew where I was going in life, I have an amazing family, awesome friends and fantastic opportunities.
But lately my opinions and ideas have been changing, and I don't mean just a little bit. I am not meaning the way I see my future going, like my path of my education I have chosen, I mean in the way I should be approaching things that will be coming my way.
I have been at Camp Wildwood this week, and have been enjoying my time here, immensely. It is such a fond memory to always come back here and revisit the place where I grew stronger in my walk with God.
I chose not to work at camp this past summer due to financial reasons in regards to my University education. I am now wondering, if I made the right choice.
Once I got here, I saw how happy I was again to be living, to be experiencing and to be interacting with all the camp related activities and people. It felt good to be home. Camp will always be a second home for me.
I thought I was going to have a rough time re-entering my "persona" here at camp. I wasn't sure if I would be able to relate to what I had left so many months ago.
As it turns out, I was wrong. Camp this week has been a real growing experience, I have missed God in my life this summer. I never realized it so much until I made my way back here again after so long. Before I came back here, that Sunday before I left, I felt lifeless, lifeless and un spirited. And I was, I was going through the motions of "shift work". And I never really liked my job this summer.
On Sunday night, just the first night of camp, my soul came back, I was becoming more comfortable, and I was becoming me again. I didn't live the way I was supposed to this summer, and I realize this now. God needed to be in my life. I needed him there with me. Instead, I left him alone, while he asked, "Sharilyn, my child where are you? You need me, I know you do". But I always ignored him. Now, I realize my mistake. I realize that I had been foolish. I made the wrong choice to try and live without God, when really, I needed him every step of the way.
Last evening, I had an experience like no other. The guys and girls were seperated into two groups. I opened the Vespers for the girls with a few songs. And felt God's hand right on my shoulder. I knew that right there, things were going to be emotional and heartfelt. I was right,
We had two people share their testimonies, and well as those being powerful, a girl from my cabin shared her story, she lives in a group home, and had had so many experiences that I couldn't even comprehend. I closed with a song, that help so very appropriate, before I move on I want to share a few of those words from the song with you.
"Hungry I come to you, for I know, you satisfy, I am weary, but I know your touch does not run dry.
So I wait for you, so I wait for you!
I'm falling on my knees, offering all of me, Jesus you all this heart, if living for".
I knew that I had made the right choice for the song. And with everything that had happened, I knew that I had been touched myself with the stories that had been told.
As I went back towards the lodge, I felt overcome with sadness. I was torn, and couldn't even relate to what had happened. My friend Reddy came to me and asked if I was okay, I just looked at him, I my eyes filled with tears. I couldn't pretend any longer. He put his arms around me, and I cried into his shoulder. It was a very emotional time for me.
I could hardly believe myself. I was just so sad, I could hardly relate to this girl. I had so much, and complained about so much. Just today I found out that she was only 13 years old. It was awful. Her little sister, is only 7 which makes things so much worse. Hopefully she won't have the same fate.
Things only got more emotional. My friend that I call my brother was deeply saddened. I thanked Reddy for what he did and I ran off to catch up with my brother.
I finally caught up with him at the lodge. He was silenced with sadness. I asked him 3 questions.
"Are you okay?"- silence and shakes head
"Do you want to be left alone?"- shakes head no
"Do you want me to stay with you?"- shakes head yes.
We then began to talk and he told me his story, And let me tell you, everything that happened ripped my heart out. He has cancer again, he is struggling with a heart problem, and he blames it all on himself.
Here I began to cry, and cry. I sat with him for a while, and we sat close together. As I stroked his arm, and prayed for him, my eyes released salty tears. I couldn't help it. I love him, he is my best friend, and I don't want to loose him as my friend.
Eventually my friend MacLeod came over and took him away. I was extremely happy with this because, MacLeod is so much wiser than me. And I realized that the fact that he is a guy could help him relate even more so to his struggles and unhappiness.
Sometimes I question myself, and wonder if I really know what is going to happen in my future, or even how the next day or minute of my life is going to go. I now realize that i never will know, but there is something that can help me.
What can help me from not knowing what to say or do is God. This week has been a blessing for me and now I have a lot more decisions to make that will effect my future.
I really wanted to share that with you all.
That is all.
Westie<3
But lately my opinions and ideas have been changing, and I don't mean just a little bit. I am not meaning the way I see my future going, like my path of my education I have chosen, I mean in the way I should be approaching things that will be coming my way.
I have been at Camp Wildwood this week, and have been enjoying my time here, immensely. It is such a fond memory to always come back here and revisit the place where I grew stronger in my walk with God.
I chose not to work at camp this past summer due to financial reasons in regards to my University education. I am now wondering, if I made the right choice.
Once I got here, I saw how happy I was again to be living, to be experiencing and to be interacting with all the camp related activities and people. It felt good to be home. Camp will always be a second home for me.
I thought I was going to have a rough time re-entering my "persona" here at camp. I wasn't sure if I would be able to relate to what I had left so many months ago.
As it turns out, I was wrong. Camp this week has been a real growing experience, I have missed God in my life this summer. I never realized it so much until I made my way back here again after so long. Before I came back here, that Sunday before I left, I felt lifeless, lifeless and un spirited. And I was, I was going through the motions of "shift work". And I never really liked my job this summer.
On Sunday night, just the first night of camp, my soul came back, I was becoming more comfortable, and I was becoming me again. I didn't live the way I was supposed to this summer, and I realize this now. God needed to be in my life. I needed him there with me. Instead, I left him alone, while he asked, "Sharilyn, my child where are you? You need me, I know you do". But I always ignored him. Now, I realize my mistake. I realize that I had been foolish. I made the wrong choice to try and live without God, when really, I needed him every step of the way.
Last evening, I had an experience like no other. The guys and girls were seperated into two groups. I opened the Vespers for the girls with a few songs. And felt God's hand right on my shoulder. I knew that right there, things were going to be emotional and heartfelt. I was right,
We had two people share their testimonies, and well as those being powerful, a girl from my cabin shared her story, she lives in a group home, and had had so many experiences that I couldn't even comprehend. I closed with a song, that help so very appropriate, before I move on I want to share a few of those words from the song with you.
"Hungry I come to you, for I know, you satisfy, I am weary, but I know your touch does not run dry.
So I wait for you, so I wait for you!
I'm falling on my knees, offering all of me, Jesus you all this heart, if living for".
I knew that I had made the right choice for the song. And with everything that had happened, I knew that I had been touched myself with the stories that had been told.
As I went back towards the lodge, I felt overcome with sadness. I was torn, and couldn't even relate to what had happened. My friend Reddy came to me and asked if I was okay, I just looked at him, I my eyes filled with tears. I couldn't pretend any longer. He put his arms around me, and I cried into his shoulder. It was a very emotional time for me.
I could hardly believe myself. I was just so sad, I could hardly relate to this girl. I had so much, and complained about so much. Just today I found out that she was only 13 years old. It was awful. Her little sister, is only 7 which makes things so much worse. Hopefully she won't have the same fate.
Things only got more emotional. My friend that I call my brother was deeply saddened. I thanked Reddy for what he did and I ran off to catch up with my brother.
I finally caught up with him at the lodge. He was silenced with sadness. I asked him 3 questions.
"Are you okay?"- silence and shakes head
"Do you want to be left alone?"- shakes head no
"Do you want me to stay with you?"- shakes head yes.
We then began to talk and he told me his story, And let me tell you, everything that happened ripped my heart out. He has cancer again, he is struggling with a heart problem, and he blames it all on himself.
Here I began to cry, and cry. I sat with him for a while, and we sat close together. As I stroked his arm, and prayed for him, my eyes released salty tears. I couldn't help it. I love him, he is my best friend, and I don't want to loose him as my friend.
Eventually my friend MacLeod came over and took him away. I was extremely happy with this because, MacLeod is so much wiser than me. And I realized that the fact that he is a guy could help him relate even more so to his struggles and unhappiness.
Sometimes I question myself, and wonder if I really know what is going to happen in my future, or even how the next day or minute of my life is going to go. I now realize that i never will know, but there is something that can help me.
What can help me from not knowing what to say or do is God. This week has been a blessing for me and now I have a lot more decisions to make that will effect my future.
I really wanted to share that with you all.
That is all.
Westie<3
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
It's Diet Time
Yup
I said it.
It is diet time. Oh yah.. H-core
this is going to be an extremely brief blog to share a little bit about me+dieting.
Believe it or not, I went on an extreme weight loss deal last year.
By the end of last sumer... I was 180... yeah... 20 pounds off of 200 and frig my life if I hadn't slowed down I would have been in trouble..
I am now, 165-167 depending, but even for my height and bone density, I am still overweight.
So, in order to fix this I am going on a diet once again starting tomorrow.
Now my dieting works actually extremely well, I am actually a person who will spit something out if it isn't good.
Here is what my dieting consists of this time around.
1- Water, water water- age old trick is still going strong
2- Milk- when dieting, it is extremely important to make sure that your bones still remain healthy, but try to cut down your percentage, ( I personally drink skim)
3- Cut out sugar- face it, sugar is bad... no way around it. What I usually do to get myself completely off sugar, is to go on a 3 week cleansing. I do this by cutting sugar for 3 weeks, and by the end, I am well on my way to a healthy lifestyle.
4-Cut out un necessary fats- if you don't need chips-- don't eat them.
5- Cut down on carbs- carbs= not good, have probably one meal a day with a carb ( lunch/breakfast) but leave you supper clear of them if possible.
6- Exercise- at least 1/2 an hour daily-- at LEAST
7- Drink green tea- one of the well known fat burning drinks.
8- Do ab exercises- just loosing the weight is great, but you will want to tighten the tummy at the same time.
9-Get sleep- less sleep, more cravings for unhealthy food.
**also try and avoid big meals before sleep, this is because everything slows down when you sleep
which leads to..
10- Stop eating after 7 pm- this is an extremely healthy thing to do period. If you ARE going to eat something, make it be a veggie or fruit.
If anyone has any questions to what else I do when it comes to dieting, add me on facebook, Sharilyn West, or leave me a comment below.
That is all.
Westie<3
I said it.
It is diet time. Oh yah.. H-core
this is going to be an extremely brief blog to share a little bit about me+dieting.
Believe it or not, I went on an extreme weight loss deal last year.
By the end of last sumer... I was 180... yeah... 20 pounds off of 200 and frig my life if I hadn't slowed down I would have been in trouble..
I am now, 165-167 depending, but even for my height and bone density, I am still overweight.
So, in order to fix this I am going on a diet once again starting tomorrow.
Now my dieting works actually extremely well, I am actually a person who will spit something out if it isn't good.
Here is what my dieting consists of this time around.
1- Water, water water- age old trick is still going strong
2- Milk- when dieting, it is extremely important to make sure that your bones still remain healthy, but try to cut down your percentage, ( I personally drink skim)
3- Cut out sugar- face it, sugar is bad... no way around it. What I usually do to get myself completely off sugar, is to go on a 3 week cleansing. I do this by cutting sugar for 3 weeks, and by the end, I am well on my way to a healthy lifestyle.
4-Cut out un necessary fats- if you don't need chips-- don't eat them.
5- Cut down on carbs- carbs= not good, have probably one meal a day with a carb ( lunch/breakfast) but leave you supper clear of them if possible.
6- Exercise- at least 1/2 an hour daily-- at LEAST
7- Drink green tea- one of the well known fat burning drinks.
8- Do ab exercises- just loosing the weight is great, but you will want to tighten the tummy at the same time.
9-Get sleep- less sleep, more cravings for unhealthy food.
**also try and avoid big meals before sleep, this is because everything slows down when you sleep
which leads to..
10- Stop eating after 7 pm- this is an extremely healthy thing to do period. If you ARE going to eat something, make it be a veggie or fruit.
If anyone has any questions to what else I do when it comes to dieting, add me on facebook, Sharilyn West, or leave me a comment below.
That is all.
Westie<3
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Traffic Control = No Go
Oh. My. Frig.
Kill me... killing me softly...
aha.
Anyway, today I went for an appointment at the ever faithful,some sort of European place called "Yves Rocher"... good times I tell you, but this is not where my adventure actually begins.
I have a vechicle. A little red SX 2.0 aka a newer version of a Dodge Neon, but with a fancier name.
I LOVE ... and I mean LOVE driving my little happy go lucky car. It provides for lovely, entertaining drives wherever I may go. It is a great little guy and/or girl (I haven't decided yet).
It is a standard ( yes I drive stick shift and I am gosh darn good at it!), so it is so nice to save gas once I hit 5th gear driving down country road.
But there is one problem, that I absolutely cannot stand.
In town traffic-- especially when there is contruction invovled.
In Moncton, the town closest to where I live, there has been an insane amount of traffic since the end of May, early June. I have no problem with contruction, but I do have one small complaint.
WHY MUST IT TAKE SO LONG!
Honestly, one section of construction in my town has taken 3 years, and has yet to be completed.
Initally, the contruction started as a mall was being built, that was not an issue for most considering that the big trucks and contruction gear was based more off to the side of the road rather than directly on it.
Now however, things have changed and the road has been traffic filled for at least 3 years... and so far, there has been little to no improvement.
Traffic with construction is understandable, but traffic period is not all that fantastic.
Today I experienced the most annoying traffic in this ENTIRE world... it was AWFUL!
I started out by driving to the mall where my appointment was. Traffic there was contruction so I moved along, grumbling to myself.
I left and experienced the same traffic, I once again grumbled, but moved on. However, things changed as soon as I started to head towards my bank.
I went down towards a noteably more busy part of town, but today it was just silly.
It was 1:30? about an hour past the lunch hour rush, and the road was PACKED.
One thing I cannot stand is when there is not enough room for a vehicle to fit on the other side of the intersection but the person decides to go anyway and block the intersection. Lovely.
The insanity didn't stop there. Oh no, traffic continued to be stupid.
Again... and again...again.. DAH!
I cannot even take the time to continue with my rant about traffic... sooooo I am peacing out, and leaving this video behind!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLkjxePttcY&playnext=1&videos=LMuDKqJYWEY!
It is A SONG ABOUT TRAFFIC!!!
kinda...
Watch it.
I DARE YOU!
that is all
Westie < 3
Kill me... killing me softly...
aha.
Anyway, today I went for an appointment at the ever faithful,some sort of European place called "Yves Rocher"... good times I tell you, but this is not where my adventure actually begins.
I have a vechicle. A little red SX 2.0 aka a newer version of a Dodge Neon, but with a fancier name.
I LOVE ... and I mean LOVE driving my little happy go lucky car. It provides for lovely, entertaining drives wherever I may go. It is a great little guy and/or girl (I haven't decided yet).
It is a standard ( yes I drive stick shift and I am gosh darn good at it!), so it is so nice to save gas once I hit 5th gear driving down country road.
But there is one problem, that I absolutely cannot stand.
In town traffic-- especially when there is contruction invovled.
In Moncton, the town closest to where I live, there has been an insane amount of traffic since the end of May, early June. I have no problem with contruction, but I do have one small complaint.
WHY MUST IT TAKE SO LONG!
Honestly, one section of construction in my town has taken 3 years, and has yet to be completed.
Initally, the contruction started as a mall was being built, that was not an issue for most considering that the big trucks and contruction gear was based more off to the side of the road rather than directly on it.
Now however, things have changed and the road has been traffic filled for at least 3 years... and so far, there has been little to no improvement.
Traffic with construction is understandable, but traffic period is not all that fantastic.
Today I experienced the most annoying traffic in this ENTIRE world... it was AWFUL!
I started out by driving to the mall where my appointment was. Traffic there was contruction so I moved along, grumbling to myself.
I left and experienced the same traffic, I once again grumbled, but moved on. However, things changed as soon as I started to head towards my bank.
I went down towards a noteably more busy part of town, but today it was just silly.
It was 1:30? about an hour past the lunch hour rush, and the road was PACKED.
One thing I cannot stand is when there is not enough room for a vehicle to fit on the other side of the intersection but the person decides to go anyway and block the intersection. Lovely.
The insanity didn't stop there. Oh no, traffic continued to be stupid.
Again... and again...again.. DAH!
I cannot even take the time to continue with my rant about traffic... sooooo I am peacing out, and leaving this video behind!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLkjxePttcY&playnext=1&videos=LMuDKqJYWEY!
It is A SONG ABOUT TRAFFIC!!!
kinda...
Watch it.
I DARE YOU!
that is all
Westie < 3
Monday, July 26, 2010
How I Feel Today.
This blog is more of a free verse poem type thing, so don't judge, I'm not the best
Today I feel of happiness, of sadness, of joy, and of disappointment.
I have been blessed, in tears, excited, and hurt.
All has happened today.
I have felt the love, the love of my family which brings me happiness,
Felt sadness for those that have felt loss,
Felt excited for new beginnings,
And finally, felt disappointment, which the choices of others.
People often say that you can only have one emotion in a run of a day, the maximum of two
I, however, feel many, depending of what I have seen or heard.
News from the internet, a text, or by voice
All these things can effect my day
Not always resulting in a positive way.
I felt happy to discover new things on the way,
but also felt sad when knowing those things won't stay the same
I felt excitement to know that my future is booming
but disappointment to know that the future of others is bound for disaster.
I am not stupid.
I know how to think.
I can be hurt.
But I can't be changed.
I know how I feel, and that's not going to change.
But I know that if things were different I might not feel this way.
I will wake up tomorrow,
and will look outside
to see a new day
I know tomorrow,
I'll feel different inside,
and hopefully not the same as this day.
You are always told to look on the bright side of things,
I often live by the goal
But the one thing that I don't like to hear
Is that you can control your emotions.
What I mean is is that I don't always feel like being happy
If something bad happens I want to cry,
If I want to celebrate I do
And if not, well I am not going to try otherwise.
That is how I feel today
That is all
Westie<3
Today I feel of happiness, of sadness, of joy, and of disappointment.
I have been blessed, in tears, excited, and hurt.
All has happened today.
I have felt the love, the love of my family which brings me happiness,
Felt sadness for those that have felt loss,
Felt excited for new beginnings,
And finally, felt disappointment, which the choices of others.
People often say that you can only have one emotion in a run of a day, the maximum of two
I, however, feel many, depending of what I have seen or heard.
News from the internet, a text, or by voice
All these things can effect my day
Not always resulting in a positive way.
I felt happy to discover new things on the way,
but also felt sad when knowing those things won't stay the same
I felt excitement to know that my future is booming
but disappointment to know that the future of others is bound for disaster.
I am not stupid.
I know how to think.
I can be hurt.
But I can't be changed.
I know how I feel, and that's not going to change.
But I know that if things were different I might not feel this way.
I will wake up tomorrow,
and will look outside
to see a new day
I know tomorrow,
I'll feel different inside,
and hopefully not the same as this day.
You are always told to look on the bright side of things,
I often live by the goal
But the one thing that I don't like to hear
Is that you can control your emotions.
What I mean is is that I don't always feel like being happy
If something bad happens I want to cry,
If I want to celebrate I do
And if not, well I am not going to try otherwise.
That is how I feel today
That is all
Westie<3
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Decisions, Decisions
Wow. This Saturday my Cousin West 2/5 is getting married.
It makes me in a way feel super old.
But then again, look how old he should feel.
When I started to think about the kind of thing I would write about I thought about this very topic, trying to DECIDE what to write about, and then it hit me. Decision making and how very easy or difficult in may be.
Since I was a little girl, I had a hard time making decisions. Even though I am getting better at it, I still have a really tough time deciding what is right, what is wrong, and what is best for me, not for everyone else.
When I was that little chubby girl with short hair, I often found that my personal decisions reflected those that I was trying to please. Always. I find now, when looking back, that if I had made different decisions as a child, that I may have been a lot happier, and had enjoyed my elementary- middle- early high school years a lot better.
I was a people pleaser and now that I look back, I am really disappointed that I cared so much that in a way, changed my own self to make other people happy.
There are some things that I am dead set on. Things that people could never sway me on, and there are things that I am still indecisive about.
These are things that I am sure of.
1- God is real, no questions asked
2-waiting until you are ready to do something
3- staying pure until marriage
4- being true to yourself
5- be truthful, not matter what the consequence
6- drugs should be left alone and not used
7- privacy is important
8- not putting others needs above my own
9- being certain of information before sharing
10- being kind
and so many more, but those are some things that really make me who I am, and that isn't about to change.
There are things that I am unsure of too, but for privacy, I have decided ( note decision) not to share, at least not now.
After I endured several rough friend ships and relationships, I decided that things had to change. I had to be come less irrational, and had to become wiser when it came to people.
I made this decision at a youth event in town called Springforth a few years ago, near the end of my grade 10 year, and I tell you, it was when my overall decision making became a lot better. And trust me, I needed it. In a way I felt as if my life was a downward spiral, but one decision made my life so great, so amazing, that since then, I realize that somethings very easy decide based on my newly found character that comes from me, being me.
My life today obviously had daily decisions that effect who I am, but I take them all in my stride. As an example, how I react to different people and situations in my workplace, depends on how I decide they are going to be. You can determine how your own goes by what you decide, sure, there will be some short falls along the way, and life isn't always perfect, but if you make the best decision for you, and only you, there is no turning back.
Regardless of what may happen, your life is controlled by you, even if there are things along that way that you may think that can shoot you. This isn't true. If you DECIDE to let them effect you they will, if not, well you made your decision, and life continues.
It's not hard to make decisions when you know what your values are. ~Roy Disney
That is all.
Westie<3
It makes me in a way feel super old.
But then again, look how old he should feel.
When I started to think about the kind of thing I would write about I thought about this very topic, trying to DECIDE what to write about, and then it hit me. Decision making and how very easy or difficult in may be.
Since I was a little girl, I had a hard time making decisions. Even though I am getting better at it, I still have a really tough time deciding what is right, what is wrong, and what is best for me, not for everyone else.
When I was that little chubby girl with short hair, I often found that my personal decisions reflected those that I was trying to please. Always. I find now, when looking back, that if I had made different decisions as a child, that I may have been a lot happier, and had enjoyed my elementary- middle- early high school years a lot better.
I was a people pleaser and now that I look back, I am really disappointed that I cared so much that in a way, changed my own self to make other people happy.
There are some things that I am dead set on. Things that people could never sway me on, and there are things that I am still indecisive about.
These are things that I am sure of.
1- God is real, no questions asked
2-waiting until you are ready to do something
3- staying pure until marriage
4- being true to yourself
5- be truthful, not matter what the consequence
6- drugs should be left alone and not used
7- privacy is important
8- not putting others needs above my own
9- being certain of information before sharing
10- being kind
and so many more, but those are some things that really make me who I am, and that isn't about to change.
There are things that I am unsure of too, but for privacy, I have decided ( note decision) not to share, at least not now.
After I endured several rough friend ships and relationships, I decided that things had to change. I had to be come less irrational, and had to become wiser when it came to people.
I made this decision at a youth event in town called Springforth a few years ago, near the end of my grade 10 year, and I tell you, it was when my overall decision making became a lot better. And trust me, I needed it. In a way I felt as if my life was a downward spiral, but one decision made my life so great, so amazing, that since then, I realize that somethings very easy decide based on my newly found character that comes from me, being me.
My life today obviously had daily decisions that effect who I am, but I take them all in my stride. As an example, how I react to different people and situations in my workplace, depends on how I decide they are going to be. You can determine how your own goes by what you decide, sure, there will be some short falls along the way, and life isn't always perfect, but if you make the best decision for you, and only you, there is no turning back.
Regardless of what may happen, your life is controlled by you, even if there are things along that way that you may think that can shoot you. This isn't true. If you DECIDE to let them effect you they will, if not, well you made your decision, and life continues.
It's not hard to make decisions when you know what your values are. ~Roy Disney
That is all.
Westie<3
Friday, July 16, 2010
Summer Daze.
Literally.
Summer DAZE!
I, to be honest don't even remember what has happen really over the past few months .... has it been months yet? I actually don't even know!
I know a few things though, it's warm, I work, and I forget what day is... everyday.
I have had some great times with my friends, but more or less because of work, it just seems like a constant never ending cycle, that I feel as if will never end.
Just yesterday I spent a day with my best friend Evans, she is actually one of the sweetest people I have EVER met in my entire life. We are going to university this coming year together and have about 4 classes at least together. I am super excited.
Yesterday, Evans and I went to the University to do some "modeling" for their .. well, to be honest, we don't even know what it is for! But just the same we were in and out of there in 15 minutes flat! pretty impressive eh?
We are JUST that good of models, international really! aha
This is a pretty brief blog I know, I will continue to talk about my experiences perhaps sunday afternoon. I must get read for work!
that is all.
Westie<3
Summer DAZE!
I, to be honest don't even remember what has happen really over the past few months .... has it been months yet? I actually don't even know!
I know a few things though, it's warm, I work, and I forget what day is... everyday.
I have had some great times with my friends, but more or less because of work, it just seems like a constant never ending cycle, that I feel as if will never end.
Just yesterday I spent a day with my best friend Evans, she is actually one of the sweetest people I have EVER met in my entire life. We are going to university this coming year together and have about 4 classes at least together. I am super excited.
Yesterday, Evans and I went to the University to do some "modeling" for their .. well, to be honest, we don't even know what it is for! But just the same we were in and out of there in 15 minutes flat! pretty impressive eh?
We are JUST that good of models, international really! aha
This is a pretty brief blog I know, I will continue to talk about my experiences perhaps sunday afternoon. I must get read for work!
that is all.
Westie<3
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Get Smart
You know what's awesome?
Old tv shows.
Shows like, Get Smart, Batman, Brady Bunch, Happy Days, etc
Just this past friday/sunday (today) I spend almost 5 or so hours watching Get Smart episodes -- season 1!
Friday, I more or less watched them because I was sick, but then I continued to watch, and to watch, I grabbed some caramel and an apple and some tea, and watched more. I tell you, that I needed a good laugh, and Get Smart definitely provided it for me.
Just today my friend Murray "mosyed" her way on over to my house after a long weekend of crazy work at the restaurant I am employed at. I was so tired. I ran, booted 'er to be exact to the top of my road when I found out that Murray was near by.
Thankfully, when she drove over the hill coming down towards my house, she noticed the crazy person hitchhiking on the side of the road (aka me). Murray slowed down and tried to pull a Uy on the top on the road, and failed... miserably.
As soon as we walked through the doors of my house, Murray was thrilled when I shared with her that we would be spending our evening watch Get Smart.
We soon began to watch this show, for many many hours. We came to the conclusion of what made older tv shows better than many today.
Here is what we discussed
1- Old TV shows had SWEET theme songs, Happy Days as an example, totally memorable, Get Smart, Batman, even though both of those have little to no words whatsoever, the use instruments to create depth and excitement at the very beginning of every episode
2- The characters were a key element to what made these shows so fantastic- Adam West, Harry Wrinkler, Don Knotts in Three's Company all were perfectly placed in their roles, which leads to our next point
3- Bad acting is clearly what makes these shows so very hilarious- obviously there are some good actors in these shows, but in Get Smart, Candace and I discussed that Agent 99 does better acting when she tries NOT to act
4- Corny is key- you know at that kiss scene where they compare a rose to the girl or whatnot, well I couldn't think of any better way to make tv entertaining!
5- "surprise endings" even though we all know how it's going to end
Older tv shows show such class and humour that I must go now, and watch more of get smart.
Actually, I'm going to watch a movie with my mother... ahhh yeah:)
that is all.
Westie<3
Old tv shows.
Shows like, Get Smart, Batman, Brady Bunch, Happy Days, etc
Just this past friday/sunday (today) I spend almost 5 or so hours watching Get Smart episodes -- season 1!
Friday, I more or less watched them because I was sick, but then I continued to watch, and to watch, I grabbed some caramel and an apple and some tea, and watched more. I tell you, that I needed a good laugh, and Get Smart definitely provided it for me.
Just today my friend Murray "mosyed" her way on over to my house after a long weekend of crazy work at the restaurant I am employed at. I was so tired. I ran, booted 'er to be exact to the top of my road when I found out that Murray was near by.
Thankfully, when she drove over the hill coming down towards my house, she noticed the crazy person hitchhiking on the side of the road (aka me). Murray slowed down and tried to pull a Uy on the top on the road, and failed... miserably.
As soon as we walked through the doors of my house, Murray was thrilled when I shared with her that we would be spending our evening watch Get Smart.
We soon began to watch this show, for many many hours. We came to the conclusion of what made older tv shows better than many today.
Here is what we discussed
1- Old TV shows had SWEET theme songs, Happy Days as an example, totally memorable, Get Smart, Batman, even though both of those have little to no words whatsoever, the use instruments to create depth and excitement at the very beginning of every episode
2- The characters were a key element to what made these shows so fantastic- Adam West, Harry Wrinkler, Don Knotts in Three's Company all were perfectly placed in their roles, which leads to our next point
3- Bad acting is clearly what makes these shows so very hilarious- obviously there are some good actors in these shows, but in Get Smart, Candace and I discussed that Agent 99 does better acting when she tries NOT to act
4- Corny is key- you know at that kiss scene where they compare a rose to the girl or whatnot, well I couldn't think of any better way to make tv entertaining!
5- "surprise endings" even though we all know how it's going to end
Older tv shows show such class and humour that I must go now, and watch more of get smart.
Actually, I'm going to watch a movie with my mother... ahhh yeah:)
that is all.
Westie<3
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Change, Not Always a Positive
Change. It is something I have gotten used to over the past few months because of grad and whatnot.
But there is always some sort of change that I never want to experience. Mostly involving friends.
The thing about friends is that they get older, and so do you, so that old bffl thing can actually be a total farce. I know this for a fact, because it happen to me recently.
I don't want to go into detail about what happened, but long short of it was that decisions were made, people got hurt, and I was left without a best friend, and since then, neither of us have talked, and to be brutally honest, I think it should stay that way, for a very long long time. Either till I decide to be a complete push over and decide that our past friendship is worth something or worth rekindling, or if that person makes some decisions themselves.
The point that I am trying to make here is that friends are great, yes they are, I'm not saying anything against having them because I have a lot of amazing friends, but trust is surely and issue in friendship, and if that in non existant, well, let's just say, you should see the signs, I certainly wish I had.
People tried to warn me, for months and months, at first I thought it was just jealously of a friendship that I had with this person, but I soon found out that was not the case, and that my friends were very much right
I have learned a lot from this experience. Somethings however, I would have rather to have had them later, especially when things that were so important were happening in my life. I would have liked to be uninvolved with the entire ordeal, but because of the friendship I had with the individual, I felt it was my right to fight, when really I should have done what I am doing now, back down, and letting that person live their own life.
I know, that probably sounds cowardly, but assure you me, it was the best option. It was the option that allowed for me to stop getting hurt. To stop having to have an empty pit in my stomach wondering how I could fix everything.
Things have gotten better since I have just let life move on in my own direction. Better perhaps. I saw this person the other day, I felt no regret to what I did, I knew what I did was right, whether the effects of it were positive or not.
I sometimes wonder how that person feels, but I often find myself stopping my thoughts realizing how uncomplicated my life has become since then and realize that it was probably for the better... but I will always remember this time, the time I lost a friend for reasons that I could not control.
"It's sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew"That is All.
Westie<3
ps. Sorry these have been slightly sad-ish lately I have more great stories to tell!
But there is always some sort of change that I never want to experience. Mostly involving friends.
The thing about friends is that they get older, and so do you, so that old bffl thing can actually be a total farce. I know this for a fact, because it happen to me recently.
I don't want to go into detail about what happened, but long short of it was that decisions were made, people got hurt, and I was left without a best friend, and since then, neither of us have talked, and to be brutally honest, I think it should stay that way, for a very long long time. Either till I decide to be a complete push over and decide that our past friendship is worth something or worth rekindling, or if that person makes some decisions themselves.
The point that I am trying to make here is that friends are great, yes they are, I'm not saying anything against having them because I have a lot of amazing friends, but trust is surely and issue in friendship, and if that in non existant, well, let's just say, you should see the signs, I certainly wish I had.
People tried to warn me, for months and months, at first I thought it was just jealously of a friendship that I had with this person, but I soon found out that was not the case, and that my friends were very much right
I have learned a lot from this experience. Somethings however, I would have rather to have had them later, especially when things that were so important were happening in my life. I would have liked to be uninvolved with the entire ordeal, but because of the friendship I had with the individual, I felt it was my right to fight, when really I should have done what I am doing now, back down, and letting that person live their own life.
I know, that probably sounds cowardly, but assure you me, it was the best option. It was the option that allowed for me to stop getting hurt. To stop having to have an empty pit in my stomach wondering how I could fix everything.
Things have gotten better since I have just let life move on in my own direction. Better perhaps. I saw this person the other day, I felt no regret to what I did, I knew what I did was right, whether the effects of it were positive or not.
I sometimes wonder how that person feels, but I often find myself stopping my thoughts realizing how uncomplicated my life has become since then and realize that it was probably for the better... but I will always remember this time, the time I lost a friend for reasons that I could not control.
"It's sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew"That is All.
Westie<3
ps. Sorry these have been slightly sad-ish lately I have more great stories to tell!
Friday, June 25, 2010
The End
High School, for me, is finished.
And wow it doesn't feel like it.
Let me just explain how things went down.
First, I had prom.
Now, I was super pumped pumped... PUMPED for prom
As I got my make up done, my hair done, and finally stepping into my aqua blue "princess" dress I realized that I had been waiting so very long for this day, and it would soon be a reality.
I drove to prom then, in a cherry red dodge charger to enjoy my evening
I soon felt like a celebrity, My cousin's wife to be was there to take pictures, as well as a friend, and an old friend that had just started a photography business full time
Lots and lots of pictures, then came time to go to prom itself.
Now, I am a pretty, per say, interesting person, so not only did I bust out some SWEET dance moves at prom , but I also got people doing absolutely insane moves with me..
One thing I will never forget about this day was dancing with one of my dearest and closest friends, Ward (the boy version:))
The poor kid had surgery on his knee but we still danced, and I'll never forget it " every rose has its thorn after all".
Safe grad was good, really enjoyable.. except the fact that before I got there I was SUPER grumpy.. mostly because I hadn't eaten since 3 pm... and it was 12? something like that either way, me without food does not get along
I had long anticipated graduation day, 1- because it is super exciting and 2- because I was most definitely LAST-- (name West)
Anyway, as I waited the ENTIRE day to pass by I decided to drop my to see my grade 4's that I grew to love during my co op program, and they loved me.
Went I finally got home I literally INSTANTLY started getting ready...it took a while I wanted everything to be perfect
A few things went wrong, parents couldn't find their tickets, and as it turned out, I had them, and I was literally DYING of heat while waiting for at least a half an hour.
After walking in, to be honest, I don't remember much else, it felt more like a dream that I would wake up from, and eventually come true, someday, but not that day. It was a haze, an memory, and scary as all get out.
Finally the letter t-z were called ( last last last!) and I walked over, saw Ward (he) and smiled, and finally my name was called. Most people WALK across the stage.. however, I walked out, did a little jump, and kept on going... all smiles.. and perhaps a bit of embaressment for my father.. oh well.. it kinda just came out
After we threw our hats into the air, we booked'er out of there and made our way to the gym, where Murray and I LITERALLY ran our hearts out, and boys oh boys... we made a lot of noise
As we raced to the gym, we flew down the stairs.. I grabbed a wrap... (yes!) and a drink... finally, and felt a lot better, I was soon taking pictures with all my friends, and enjoying my last few minutes with the people I knew and loved.
Murray and I made a run to McDicks.. to basically shove out faces with food, I blasted Glee on my way home, and loved life!
As I woke up the next morning, it didn't seem possible that I had graduated the night before, I gathered all of my things, and prepped to get ready to get my report card. So I piled everything into my car and left.
I stopped to get a picture for Hudson that was taken at grad the night before that more or less described us as friends easily.
I got to school talked with some teachers, gave Hudson his gift ( a survival pack for Uni ) and walked around the school, for the last time as a student. I sat with Buchanan in the Auditorium and I cried. I am not a person who does a lot of crying, and for me to do so about school was an extreme shock.
School is a gift, I often wished for it to be over and done with, and now it is. And frankly, I have a feeling deep within my of confusion and in a way regret, wondering if I had done more, would I be a better person today.
But then I thought about it, I grew as a person, and as a student, I had my path, and other people had theirs. That is how it was, and that is why I am satisfied with who I am today, A MHS grad, moving on to face things that I could never face without MHS, Rugby, Friends, Family, Teachers, life lessons, and so on.
God Bless the Grads of 2010,
I will miss you all dearly
That is all.
Westie<3
And wow it doesn't feel like it.
Let me just explain how things went down.
First, I had prom.
Now, I was super pumped pumped... PUMPED for prom
As I got my make up done, my hair done, and finally stepping into my aqua blue "princess" dress I realized that I had been waiting so very long for this day, and it would soon be a reality.
I drove to prom then, in a cherry red dodge charger to enjoy my evening
I soon felt like a celebrity, My cousin's wife to be was there to take pictures, as well as a friend, and an old friend that had just started a photography business full time
Lots and lots of pictures, then came time to go to prom itself.
Now, I am a pretty, per say, interesting person, so not only did I bust out some SWEET dance moves at prom , but I also got people doing absolutely insane moves with me..
One thing I will never forget about this day was dancing with one of my dearest and closest friends, Ward (the boy version:))
The poor kid had surgery on his knee but we still danced, and I'll never forget it " every rose has its thorn after all".
Safe grad was good, really enjoyable.. except the fact that before I got there I was SUPER grumpy.. mostly because I hadn't eaten since 3 pm... and it was 12? something like that either way, me without food does not get along
I had long anticipated graduation day, 1- because it is super exciting and 2- because I was most definitely LAST-- (name West)
Anyway, as I waited the ENTIRE day to pass by I decided to drop my to see my grade 4's that I grew to love during my co op program, and they loved me.
Went I finally got home I literally INSTANTLY started getting ready...it took a while I wanted everything to be perfect
A few things went wrong, parents couldn't find their tickets, and as it turned out, I had them, and I was literally DYING of heat while waiting for at least a half an hour.
After walking in, to be honest, I don't remember much else, it felt more like a dream that I would wake up from, and eventually come true, someday, but not that day. It was a haze, an memory, and scary as all get out.
Finally the letter t-z were called ( last last last!) and I walked over, saw Ward (he) and smiled, and finally my name was called. Most people WALK across the stage.. however, I walked out, did a little jump, and kept on going... all smiles.. and perhaps a bit of embaressment for my father.. oh well.. it kinda just came out
After we threw our hats into the air, we booked'er out of there and made our way to the gym, where Murray and I LITERALLY ran our hearts out, and boys oh boys... we made a lot of noise
As we raced to the gym, we flew down the stairs.. I grabbed a wrap... (yes!) and a drink... finally, and felt a lot better, I was soon taking pictures with all my friends, and enjoying my last few minutes with the people I knew and loved.
Murray and I made a run to McDicks.. to basically shove out faces with food, I blasted Glee on my way home, and loved life!
As I woke up the next morning, it didn't seem possible that I had graduated the night before, I gathered all of my things, and prepped to get ready to get my report card. So I piled everything into my car and left.
I stopped to get a picture for Hudson that was taken at grad the night before that more or less described us as friends easily.
I got to school talked with some teachers, gave Hudson his gift ( a survival pack for Uni ) and walked around the school, for the last time as a student. I sat with Buchanan in the Auditorium and I cried. I am not a person who does a lot of crying, and for me to do so about school was an extreme shock.
School is a gift, I often wished for it to be over and done with, and now it is. And frankly, I have a feeling deep within my of confusion and in a way regret, wondering if I had done more, would I be a better person today.
But then I thought about it, I grew as a person, and as a student, I had my path, and other people had theirs. That is how it was, and that is why I am satisfied with who I am today, A MHS grad, moving on to face things that I could never face without MHS, Rugby, Friends, Family, Teachers, life lessons, and so on.
God Bless the Grads of 2010,
I will miss you all dearly
That is all.
Westie<3
Sunday, June 20, 2010
"What's up" -- on YOUTUBE-- "oh"
Youtube
A classic, usually , non disgusting videos for entertainment
like,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NaLbuOAB-SM&playnext_from=TL&videos=brbwbfL7Zr8
or
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ymi52UbGEZM&playnext_from=TL&videos=8q6h0hodVfQ
or
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tx1XIm6q4r4&playnext_from=TL&videos=FaZXdohAB6U
or even
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gtkU2ch0sRI&playnext_from=TL&videos=bRWOhzQuw5c
All of these videos provide lovely, slightly hilarious, music, songs, spoofs, push up bras, snapes, and the lovely stylings of Glee and Sam Tsui
But I have to say, I was not always the fan of YouTube, I just assumed it was the stylings of those who were bored, jobless, or just plain stupid
Plus, it took me 20 bajillion years to load a youtube video
I'm talking like 3 hours.. for it to be half way
Until I got highspeed (SCORE)
However, my day came, and that day changed my life forever
I was slacking in my first semester English class (no surprise there) when Buchanan decided he wanted to show me a video... I was like oh sure, why not... So I agreed, the video would have been great.. he figured I would love it...
So we waited..
However, the lovely school internet decided to be A SNAIL
So, I couldn't watch it...
that's okay
So I went home on the bus... and I do.. love to hate the bus
I got home, and I had NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING to do, so, i figured, hope on facebook.. there is always something there... not so much
So I decided to look up the video Ryan tried to show me
I just sat there and stared, so intoxicated by this video, I watched more and more, and then I realized my parents were home, and I had to get up,
but it didn't stop there.
I have talked about my concussion in rugby before, but when I got home one night, I found a series on youtube, and I was hooked, I couldn't drop it, I just couldn't stop
My love continued, and from there I have become a Youtube Junkie, and I am NEVER going back!
That is all
Westie<3
ps. Check out those videos I provided the link for above, they are great
A classic, usually , non disgusting videos for entertainment
like,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NaLbuOAB-SM&playnext_from=TL&videos=brbwbfL7Zr8
or
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ymi52UbGEZM&playnext_from=TL&videos=8q6h0hodVfQ
or
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tx1XIm6q4r4&playnext_from=TL&videos=FaZXdohAB6U
or even
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gtkU2ch0sRI&playnext_from=TL&videos=bRWOhzQuw5c
All of these videos provide lovely, slightly hilarious, music, songs, spoofs, push up bras, snapes, and the lovely stylings of Glee and Sam Tsui
But I have to say, I was not always the fan of YouTube, I just assumed it was the stylings of those who were bored, jobless, or just plain stupid
Plus, it took me 20 bajillion years to load a youtube video
I'm talking like 3 hours.. for it to be half way
Until I got highspeed (SCORE)
However, my day came, and that day changed my life forever
I was slacking in my first semester English class (no surprise there) when Buchanan decided he wanted to show me a video... I was like oh sure, why not... So I agreed, the video would have been great.. he figured I would love it...
So we waited..
However, the lovely school internet decided to be A SNAIL
So, I couldn't watch it...
that's okay
So I went home on the bus... and I do.. love to hate the bus
I got home, and I had NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING to do, so, i figured, hope on facebook.. there is always something there... not so much
So I decided to look up the video Ryan tried to show me
I just sat there and stared, so intoxicated by this video, I watched more and more, and then I realized my parents were home, and I had to get up,
but it didn't stop there.
I have talked about my concussion in rugby before, but when I got home one night, I found a series on youtube, and I was hooked, I couldn't drop it, I just couldn't stop
My love continued, and from there I have become a Youtube Junkie, and I am NEVER going back!
That is all
Westie<3
ps. Check out those videos I provided the link for above, they are great
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Foreplay/ Longtime
Literally my title reflects that I have not written in ,well, forever, and the fact that that song is my ever so depressing grad song.
ugh, I wanted the littlest hobo theme song, or great big sea, walking on the moon, but somehow my excellent taste in music was KICKED OUT OF LIFE
Anyway, I am graduating in a few days, woo!
I actually can't believe it, it's actually nuts, prom is tuesday, and grad is thrusday... geez
So as I sit here whitening my teeth, I think about my future,
what it will be like, and what in the world I will be doing in even a few short years.
I guess Boston kinda got it right
"There's a long road, I've gotta stay in time with
I've got to keep on chasin' that dream, though I may never find it
I'm always just behind it."
but at the same time...
HOW DEPRESSING IS THAT!
Honestly, I will be bawling my eyes out thinking that I will never do what I really want to do in life. What that is at this point however is unknown, I was thinking princess.. or rockstar... but I decided a family life would be much more rewarding somewhere along the way.
Imagine this
Graduation night, you are sitting there, and you look just like every single one of the people sitting waiting to graduate.
You look around and notice this and think, "who will be successful? who won't be, and will their current popularity in high school make ANY difference in the future. More than likely the answer to that is no. The most popular girl in school could end up falling in love with the nerd of the class in 5-10 years or so, time changes people, in the way they look, and how they are as a person.
"Well I get so lonely when I am without you
But in my mind, deep in my mind,
I can't forget about you
Good times, and faces that remind me
I'm tryin' to forget your name and leave it all behind me
You're comin' back to find me"
That is what Boston could mean here. In the future, you will remember certain things, and certain events about people, but it doesn't mean that you will look at them the same way, you could perceive them in a completely different light.
The more I think about this grad song, I see it as a sad song, but I also see it as a moving on song, a future song that talks about how the people and things will be "deep in our minds" but won't totally effect who we will become as people in the future.
To my grad class, think about this song ( no matter how much you hate it or love it ) and know that it is just a song, and in our future we may not even remember what our grad song ever was. .
That is all,
Westie<3
ugh, I wanted the littlest hobo theme song, or great big sea, walking on the moon, but somehow my excellent taste in music was KICKED OUT OF LIFE
Anyway, I am graduating in a few days, woo!
I actually can't believe it, it's actually nuts, prom is tuesday, and grad is thrusday... geez
So as I sit here whitening my teeth, I think about my future,
what it will be like, and what in the world I will be doing in even a few short years.
I guess Boston kinda got it right
"There's a long road, I've gotta stay in time with
I've got to keep on chasin' that dream, though I may never find it
I'm always just behind it."
but at the same time...
HOW DEPRESSING IS THAT!
Honestly, I will be bawling my eyes out thinking that I will never do what I really want to do in life. What that is at this point however is unknown, I was thinking princess.. or rockstar... but I decided a family life would be much more rewarding somewhere along the way.
Imagine this
Graduation night, you are sitting there, and you look just like every single one of the people sitting waiting to graduate.
You look around and notice this and think, "who will be successful? who won't be, and will their current popularity in high school make ANY difference in the future. More than likely the answer to that is no. The most popular girl in school could end up falling in love with the nerd of the class in 5-10 years or so, time changes people, in the way they look, and how they are as a person.
"Well I get so lonely when I am without you
But in my mind, deep in my mind,
I can't forget about you
Good times, and faces that remind me
I'm tryin' to forget your name and leave it all behind me
You're comin' back to find me"
That is what Boston could mean here. In the future, you will remember certain things, and certain events about people, but it doesn't mean that you will look at them the same way, you could perceive them in a completely different light.
The more I think about this grad song, I see it as a sad song, but I also see it as a moving on song, a future song that talks about how the people and things will be "deep in our minds" but won't totally effect who we will become as people in the future.
To my grad class, think about this song ( no matter how much you hate it or love it ) and know that it is just a song, and in our future we may not even remember what our grad song ever was. .
That is all,
Westie<3
Friday, June 11, 2010
The Last Day
Sadness
That's how I felt today.
There was a reason for this, it was the last day "officially" of my highschool career.
I figured that I would have been happy when this day came, but the truth it that it isn't the case whatsoever.
As I walked into the building of all buildings this morning, a wave of sadness washed over me. It was like I had never felt so emotional, think about something like school.
To think that now I was dealing with such a sadness was so hard.
Each class was a painful reminder that it was in fact the very last day ever.
But at the same time, I felt as if the day would never end.
Langdo and I left during third period to go to lunch, at which point we decided to throw a going away party for Hudson.
We ate, got chips/ pop etc.
The 4th rolled around nothing happened.
Then came 5th.
The class and some friends of the class came and surprised Hudson. Which was awesome.
But then, something happened to me, something that doesn't happen to me ever. I started to cry.
I tried to inform everyone that I had no tear ducts and that it was not possible, but I just couldn't prove it. The fact was I was sad, and I could no longer hide it. I could no longer be the tough rugby player that everyone knows and loves, when really I am this HUGE softy and to be honest, I don't how to handle it.
The sad thing is is that no one really knows me enough to know how sensitive I am.
Except one person now, and believe it or not, that person is Hudson.
For some reason, somewhere along the way, I was able to feel comfortable and shed those few tears in my heart that were tearing me apart. So, I did.
After school had ended I just sat there for a while. I sat, and I sat, and I sat.
Finally, I got up and left. Walked to subway, with still a sad look on my face, and sadness in my eyes.
Thankfully for me Hudson kinda cheered me up, made me think of other things, so did Murray (haha) , and my own heart had to do a complete flip.
Still however, I am sad, but you see I am also happy, I am happy for a future, for new things, things will someday sculpt me for who I will be in the future.
That is all--
Westie<3
That's how I felt today.
There was a reason for this, it was the last day "officially" of my highschool career.
I figured that I would have been happy when this day came, but the truth it that it isn't the case whatsoever.
As I walked into the building of all buildings this morning, a wave of sadness washed over me. It was like I had never felt so emotional, think about something like school.
To think that now I was dealing with such a sadness was so hard.
Each class was a painful reminder that it was in fact the very last day ever.
But at the same time, I felt as if the day would never end.
Langdo and I left during third period to go to lunch, at which point we decided to throw a going away party for Hudson.
We ate, got chips/ pop etc.
The 4th rolled around nothing happened.
Then came 5th.
The class and some friends of the class came and surprised Hudson. Which was awesome.
But then, something happened to me, something that doesn't happen to me ever. I started to cry.
I tried to inform everyone that I had no tear ducts and that it was not possible, but I just couldn't prove it. The fact was I was sad, and I could no longer hide it. I could no longer be the tough rugby player that everyone knows and loves, when really I am this HUGE softy and to be honest, I don't how to handle it.
The sad thing is is that no one really knows me enough to know how sensitive I am.
Except one person now, and believe it or not, that person is Hudson.
For some reason, somewhere along the way, I was able to feel comfortable and shed those few tears in my heart that were tearing me apart. So, I did.
After school had ended I just sat there for a while. I sat, and I sat, and I sat.
Finally, I got up and left. Walked to subway, with still a sad look on my face, and sadness in my eyes.
Thankfully for me Hudson kinda cheered me up, made me think of other things, so did Murray (haha) , and my own heart had to do a complete flip.
Still however, I am sad, but you see I am also happy, I am happy for a future, for new things, things will someday sculpt me for who I will be in the future.
That is all--
Westie<3
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Narnia- The Adventure
Today, was an adventure,
I was bored, it was raining, I was bored, it was raining
Get my point?
Well, I went through 1st, no change
2nd? not so much
3rd-- it all starts.
I was working... kinda...
But there was something else happening, Clue
Langdo, Hurtado, and Mischiek were playing it
Well, I guess that's not where my adventure began
You see, I have these 3 friends, 2 of which have a brother in my grade...
but that is besides the point
I met these 3 amazing girls while playing rugby this year, all 3 are amazing players. I really have to stop being so sappy. Holy
Murray and I were walking in the halls, and decided to go to our Rugby coach's room
There I ran into Ward, Roy and Sweet.
There my adventure really began
We started gallavanting about the halls, shouting retarded things... when suddenly there was an empty stair way, and Sweet shouted
NARNIA!
that is all.
Westie<3
PS . I do realize that was the most random blog ever, it was more out of request of my friends!
I was bored, it was raining, I was bored, it was raining
Get my point?
Well, I went through 1st, no change
2nd? not so much
3rd-- it all starts.
I was working... kinda...
But there was something else happening, Clue
Langdo, Hurtado, and Mischiek were playing it
Well, I guess that's not where my adventure began
You see, I have these 3 friends, 2 of which have a brother in my grade...
but that is besides the point
I met these 3 amazing girls while playing rugby this year, all 3 are amazing players. I really have to stop being so sappy. Holy
Murray and I were walking in the halls, and decided to go to our Rugby coach's room
There I ran into Ward, Roy and Sweet.
There my adventure really began
We started gallavanting about the halls, shouting retarded things... when suddenly there was an empty stair way, and Sweet shouted
NARNIA!
that is all.
Westie<3
PS . I do realize that was the most random blog ever, it was more out of request of my friends!
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Hospitals and Me.
I really, really, really, really, really HATE hospitals.
And guess what?
I have spent a lot of time recently at the hospital for various reasons.
Firstly, I spent 8 hours in a hospital from an unfortunate rugby accident.
You see, it was our first game of the season.
I was nervous
GOOOOODDD GRRRIIIEEEFFF II WWWAASSS NNNEEERRVVVOOUUSSS
x's a billion... you don't even know.
So bascially the game started...
second half rolled around...
a girl was headed towards our goal line... and she had to be stopped.
I went after her, as fast as I could.
It all went black.
I started to wake up with my coach looking over me talking to be. Johnston was my hero just then. He practically picked me up off the ground. Put his arm under my arm and helped me walk off the field with my pride still in tact... hardly.
I was then walked across the field by my Johnston as the game finished. I was then in the care of my two cousins GWest and CWest, CWest's fiance Mckay and BFF teach ( now will be referred to as Hudson).
I don't remember what I said or what I did but I do remember sitting in Mckay's car talking to about the most random things.
My parents finally came, and I sat in their car in silence on the way to the hospital.
Thinking...
FRIG
Me+Hospital= disaster
We arrived, I signed in and I sat there, and sat there... and sat there.
Then
SOMEONE TURNED ON THE FRIGGIN' CAPS-HABS GAME
THEY STARTED TO SCREAM! AND CHEER!
It was the most irritating thing in my entire life.
I then fell asleep in my mothers arms.
You're not supposed to do that apparently.
But I did anyway!
By the time I got out of the hospital, I had been there 9 hours. I felt sick and horrible and never wanted to go back there ever... ever.. EVER again.
But, the next month I went to a hearing test, just this past Friday.
1/2 before the test... I felt so sick before even walking into the hospital
I did the test.
My hearing was perfect.
But
One test would not work.
As it turns if that test doesn't work.
You have a problem, and my happened to be that there was a hole in my ear.
Now I have to go to the hospital at least another 2 times.
And I tell you...
I am just so excited.
Not.
That is all.
Westie<3
And guess what?
I have spent a lot of time recently at the hospital for various reasons.
Firstly, I spent 8 hours in a hospital from an unfortunate rugby accident.
You see, it was our first game of the season.
I was nervous
GOOOOODDD GRRRIIIEEEFFF II WWWAASSS NNNEEERRVVVOOUUSSS
x's a billion... you don't even know.
So bascially the game started...
second half rolled around...
a girl was headed towards our goal line... and she had to be stopped.
I went after her, as fast as I could.
It all went black.
I started to wake up with my coach looking over me talking to be. Johnston was my hero just then. He practically picked me up off the ground. Put his arm under my arm and helped me walk off the field with my pride still in tact... hardly.
I was then walked across the field by my Johnston as the game finished. I was then in the care of my two cousins GWest and CWest, CWest's fiance Mckay and BFF teach ( now will be referred to as Hudson).
I don't remember what I said or what I did but I do remember sitting in Mckay's car talking to about the most random things.
My parents finally came, and I sat in their car in silence on the way to the hospital.
Thinking...
FRIG
Me+Hospital= disaster
We arrived, I signed in and I sat there, and sat there... and sat there.
Then
SOMEONE TURNED ON THE FRIGGIN' CAPS-HABS GAME
THEY STARTED TO SCREAM! AND CHEER!
It was the most irritating thing in my entire life.
I then fell asleep in my mothers arms.
You're not supposed to do that apparently.
But I did anyway!
By the time I got out of the hospital, I had been there 9 hours. I felt sick and horrible and never wanted to go back there ever... ever.. EVER again.
But, the next month I went to a hearing test, just this past Friday.
1/2 before the test... I felt so sick before even walking into the hospital
I did the test.
My hearing was perfect.
But
One test would not work.
As it turns if that test doesn't work.
You have a problem, and my happened to be that there was a hole in my ear.
Now I have to go to the hospital at least another 2 times.
And I tell you...
I am just so excited.
Not.
That is all.
Westie<3
Thursday, May 27, 2010
What a Day
Oh Hey
it's me ... again
Go figure
Today happened to be one of my favourite days
A Thursday.. I know how weird am I??
Today was special to me for various reasons.
Starting off, I had a wonderful morning, eating a piece of toast with raspberry jam, and nutella ( that's a good mix I tell you!). A BREAKFAST OF CHAMPIONS! that's for sure!
I practically ran to the bus stop ( which is no rare occurrence on my part). I got to see my two little seconds cousins (both of whom are dolls mind you), and I rocked out to Glee on the way to school, that could put anyone in a fantastic mood!
Once arriving at school, I went downstairs to talk to my bff teacher. He made my morning, as he frequently does! Makes me laugh.. what a guy. I talked with him to the bell, and then made my way to 1st period.
I went to bio (which was 1st because of the rotation). We did a few problems, I was made fun of by my teacher (which also happens.. a lot, but I dish it right back).
Right after that we had study hall, which can either be awful or a farce. Today we just hung out and had a great time!
During 2nd (which was really considered 1st because of the rotation). We saw a mock disaster, and it was cold outside... but we still had a good time listening to it.
If I am boring you, this gets better.
During 4th it was a mock trial for my law class, full of laughs!
5th is always a classic for me, considering it's with my bff teacher.
Wow, we watched a section of speed, the fantastic movie that it is. We did a presentation, watched a Tina Turner video at the very end of class. I went up to the computer to watch it and BFF starts dancing beside me, and it was soooooooo funny. He then put on proud mary, to which point my cousin (who works at my school, walks in and rolls his eyes, something us wests do a lot) walks in-- we at that point made fun of BFF a lot... it's what us wests do best.
I walked to the mall at which point I was in a desperate to find an outfit for the Rugby banquet that night.
I searched.
And searched.
AND SEARCHED.
nothing. nothing . nothing at sears. and besides... some woman glared at me everytime I walked by her... like I was going to steal or something... WHAT A JOKE
I decided to go somewhere because I was very desperate.
I went to ....
...
WALMART
GASP!
and within 5 mintues I found my whole outfit-- go figure.
So then I went back to sears and got my make up done.
It looked pretty:) I was happy.
So then I went to the banquet... It was AWESOME!!
I got a jacket with my name on it AND A BAG
I was a little excited... ask Ward, Sweet , Noonan, Bowes, O'Brien, and Roy. They can all tell you I was thrilled.
It turned out that Sweet and I's parents had took a french class together pre us!
what the heck!
The best was yet to come.
I have this thing where I write letters out loud.
Literally.
I'm known for it.
So today during school, I was asked by numerous to write one for the rugby banquet.
SOOOO I did!
I spent a part of psych writing this fantastic speech/letter.
I then at the banquet stood on a chair (shocking/ embarassing my poor father to death) and delivered this letter of mine.
I think a lot of people laughed a bit...
just a bit
regardless, it was one of the best moments of my life, I enjoyed every second, I got pictures, had fun, and enjoyed myself.
What a day!
That is all.
Westie<3
it's me ... again
Go figure
Today happened to be one of my favourite days
A Thursday.. I know how weird am I??
Today was special to me for various reasons.
Starting off, I had a wonderful morning, eating a piece of toast with raspberry jam, and nutella ( that's a good mix I tell you!). A BREAKFAST OF CHAMPIONS! that's for sure!
I practically ran to the bus stop ( which is no rare occurrence on my part). I got to see my two little seconds cousins (both of whom are dolls mind you), and I rocked out to Glee on the way to school, that could put anyone in a fantastic mood!
Once arriving at school, I went downstairs to talk to my bff teacher. He made my morning, as he frequently does! Makes me laugh.. what a guy. I talked with him to the bell, and then made my way to 1st period.
I went to bio (which was 1st because of the rotation). We did a few problems, I was made fun of by my teacher (which also happens.. a lot, but I dish it right back).
Right after that we had study hall, which can either be awful or a farce. Today we just hung out and had a great time!
During 2nd (which was really considered 1st because of the rotation). We saw a mock disaster, and it was cold outside... but we still had a good time listening to it.
If I am boring you, this gets better.
During 4th it was a mock trial for my law class, full of laughs!
5th is always a classic for me, considering it's with my bff teacher.
Wow, we watched a section of speed, the fantastic movie that it is. We did a presentation, watched a Tina Turner video at the very end of class. I went up to the computer to watch it and BFF starts dancing beside me, and it was soooooooo funny. He then put on proud mary, to which point my cousin (who works at my school, walks in and rolls his eyes, something us wests do a lot) walks in-- we at that point made fun of BFF a lot... it's what us wests do best.
I walked to the mall at which point I was in a desperate to find an outfit for the Rugby banquet that night.
I searched.
And searched.
AND SEARCHED.
nothing. nothing . nothing at sears. and besides... some woman glared at me everytime I walked by her... like I was going to steal or something... WHAT A JOKE
I decided to go somewhere because I was very desperate.
I went to ....
...
WALMART
GASP!
and within 5 mintues I found my whole outfit-- go figure.
So then I went back to sears and got my make up done.
It looked pretty:) I was happy.
So then I went to the banquet... It was AWESOME!!
I got a jacket with my name on it AND A BAG
I was a little excited... ask Ward, Sweet , Noonan, Bowes, O'Brien, and Roy. They can all tell you I was thrilled.
It turned out that Sweet and I's parents had took a french class together pre us!
what the heck!
The best was yet to come.
I have this thing where I write letters out loud.
Literally.
I'm known for it.
So today during school, I was asked by numerous to write one for the rugby banquet.
SOOOO I did!
I spent a part of psych writing this fantastic speech/letter.
I then at the banquet stood on a chair (shocking/ embarassing my poor father to death) and delivered this letter of mine.
I think a lot of people laughed a bit...
just a bit
regardless, it was one of the best moments of my life, I enjoyed every second, I got pictures, had fun, and enjoyed myself.
What a day!
That is all.
Westie<3
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Grad-itis
My Goodness.
It's getting to me.
I never thought it would, I thought there was no way.
Well, so much for that theory.
I am a pretty hard working student, two hours a night (again now since rugby is over), I get my stuff in on time, I do quite well, etc.
But
There is one thing, just one thing that can get to a grade 12 student at this time of year.
If you haven't guessed what it is based on my title, I'll tell you.
It is a common grade 12 illness call GRAD-ITIS
This is one terrible illness to have at the end of May. By this time in the year, the teachers tend to give students EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE. And let me reassure you, IT SUCKS!
I would much rather be spending my time watching glee then doing my psychology paper, or my law mock trial, or my AP biology (which I dislike to begin with mind you). That's what this illness does, it makes you procrastinate, get behind, find that the time goes slow, makes you think that you have all the time in the world to do work, and that you're practically done high school.
Well, yes, I am almost done high school, BUT, I am no where near to finishing the work that I really need to be doing. It isn't interesting to me anymore. It's almost like being on a diet and on your first day you decide that one chocolate bar isn't a bad thing, and then suddenly the chocolate bar is gone, as are other things, and your diet it out the window.
Like that example, so many people forget that there are still exams, final papers, important critical assignment that could possibly make or break their grade 12 year. Thankfully, I only need two more credits to graduates (but I am still doing all my work, slowly, but surely however). But still, the weather outside is getting nicer, the sun is out, you want to go hang out with your friends, and yet... you have a term paper due next week (I know I do).
As far as I'm concerned, I will get over this illness after I'm done 2 more major projects (one of which should be done by Monday or Tuesday, and the other by Friday!). But until then, the thought of fun in the sun, and procrastination will try and keep me away, but it will not defeat me!
Anyway, I must stop blogging and start a research paper!
WISH ME LUCK!
That is all.
Westie<3
It's getting to me.
I never thought it would, I thought there was no way.
Well, so much for that theory.
I am a pretty hard working student, two hours a night (again now since rugby is over), I get my stuff in on time, I do quite well, etc.
But
There is one thing, just one thing that can get to a grade 12 student at this time of year.
If you haven't guessed what it is based on my title, I'll tell you.
It is a common grade 12 illness call GRAD-ITIS
This is one terrible illness to have at the end of May. By this time in the year, the teachers tend to give students EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE. And let me reassure you, IT SUCKS!
I would much rather be spending my time watching glee then doing my psychology paper, or my law mock trial, or my AP biology (which I dislike to begin with mind you). That's what this illness does, it makes you procrastinate, get behind, find that the time goes slow, makes you think that you have all the time in the world to do work, and that you're practically done high school.
Well, yes, I am almost done high school, BUT, I am no where near to finishing the work that I really need to be doing. It isn't interesting to me anymore. It's almost like being on a diet and on your first day you decide that one chocolate bar isn't a bad thing, and then suddenly the chocolate bar is gone, as are other things, and your diet it out the window.
Like that example, so many people forget that there are still exams, final papers, important critical assignment that could possibly make or break their grade 12 year. Thankfully, I only need two more credits to graduates (but I am still doing all my work, slowly, but surely however). But still, the weather outside is getting nicer, the sun is out, you want to go hang out with your friends, and yet... you have a term paper due next week (I know I do).
As far as I'm concerned, I will get over this illness after I'm done 2 more major projects (one of which should be done by Monday or Tuesday, and the other by Friday!). But until then, the thought of fun in the sun, and procrastination will try and keep me away, but it will not defeat me!
Anyway, I must stop blogging and start a research paper!
WISH ME LUCK!
That is all.
Westie<3
Thursday, May 20, 2010
One of Those Days
Have you ever had one of those days where everything seems to go wrong, you're sad, slightly depressed, and it seems like your world is crashing down around you?
Well, for me, that day was in fact today.
It started more or less during first period. I was tired, annoyed, and worried about practically every single thing that I had to do. And of course, me and worrying never get along. So my exhaustion started to get the best of me, and I started to snap and every given chance. My poor friends, I don't know how they dealt with me today. I pity them, mostly because I am an AWFUL person when I am grumpy.
I couldn't answer one question in class without wanting to go and run for a bit. I was wanted to get up, move and walk around. However, that isn't exactly possible when you have to sit in biology for an hour, trying to figure out exactly what is going on.
By the time lunch rolled around I was an absolute bear, or at least I thought.
Then I started to eat my lunch with my faithful friends, they are a great bunch of girls, I love them all, and they know how to handle me. Lucky for them!
We sat outside the main office of the school, and I was still a major grump at this point, until they started talking about the things I did when I had my concussion. The stories were hilarious.
I am pretty good friends with one of my teachers, my dad taught him in Uni. and my cousins are both good friends with him too. As it turned out, during my concussion, when I was totally out of it, I SNIFFED him, and then proceeded to tell him that he smelled good.
When they told me this I DIED laughing
I could not believe that I had actually just done one of the most retarded things ever.
Apparently after I told him he smelled good, I apologized and started to cry, walk out of the class, and walk into a wall.
What a pick me up story, I was on the floor dying of laughter. Suddenly, the secretary of my school comes out and tells us to be quiet because they can't hear the people on the phones. This only made me laugh that much harder so we had to get up and leave.
After that the day got a lot better, I was thankful I have to be honest. Thank goodness for friends eh?
That is all.
Westie<3
Well, for me, that day was in fact today.
It started more or less during first period. I was tired, annoyed, and worried about practically every single thing that I had to do. And of course, me and worrying never get along. So my exhaustion started to get the best of me, and I started to snap and every given chance. My poor friends, I don't know how they dealt with me today. I pity them, mostly because I am an AWFUL person when I am grumpy.
I couldn't answer one question in class without wanting to go and run for a bit. I was wanted to get up, move and walk around. However, that isn't exactly possible when you have to sit in biology for an hour, trying to figure out exactly what is going on.
By the time lunch rolled around I was an absolute bear, or at least I thought.
Then I started to eat my lunch with my faithful friends, they are a great bunch of girls, I love them all, and they know how to handle me. Lucky for them!
We sat outside the main office of the school, and I was still a major grump at this point, until they started talking about the things I did when I had my concussion. The stories were hilarious.
I am pretty good friends with one of my teachers, my dad taught him in Uni. and my cousins are both good friends with him too. As it turned out, during my concussion, when I was totally out of it, I SNIFFED him, and then proceeded to tell him that he smelled good.
When they told me this I DIED laughing
I could not believe that I had actually just done one of the most retarded things ever.
Apparently after I told him he smelled good, I apologized and started to cry, walk out of the class, and walk into a wall.
What a pick me up story, I was on the floor dying of laughter. Suddenly, the secretary of my school comes out and tells us to be quiet because they can't hear the people on the phones. This only made me laugh that much harder so we had to get up and leave.
After that the day got a lot better, I was thankful I have to be honest. Thank goodness for friends eh?
That is all.
Westie<3
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Rugby
Today was the final day for MHS girls rugby 2010.
And let me tell you, I was both excited and but I was more sad than anything else.
Which is understandable, after all, it was going to be my first and final year.
Before the game started, my coach informed me that I would not be starting, which is understandable, I got a concussion the first game of the official season. The worst part about not starting however, is the wait, the wait to see whether or not I would play the last game... of possibly my entire life.
Suddenly, I got the call. My coach called me over just after half time and said to me " West you're in". And that is all I needed to hear.
The cheers I received while running onto the feel made me want to burst, I was proud to be apart of this team, and to be running onto the field, our home field, to play this game that we had all worked so very hard for.
The whistle blew, and I was ready to go. I had spent two and a half weeks sitting around watching everyone else play the sport that I truly loved, and that was hard. Today, I was playing and nothing was going to stop me-- Even #15, she was HUGE... even compared to me... and I'm a little tank.
So I ran, I never realized how much I liked to run... I had this stupid scrum cap on my head however, preventing my hair from blowing in the wind... BUT ANYWAY... I ran.. tackled, and ran some more.
We soon had a line out, they called for me.. and I ran, darting from left to right dodging players.. everything is a bit of a blur from then however, because I passed it to my friend and well, WE SCORED! I am partially deaf because of that try now, although I must admit I do love to hear Sweet screaming for dear life in my ear with happiness!
The game continued on, and we put up a fight, and I'm sure they weren't expecting one, after all, they had beat us two days before.
As the final whistle blew I realized that our season had come to an abrupt halt. It was over, and I tell you I was sad.
But I then I looked back and realized that I would never change a thing, the players, the coaches, the conditioning, even my concussion, it was all and experience.
As we celebrated that night at a local restaurant, I realized that I had been apart of a fine organization of talented players. we had had some rough times, injuries, and some bad refs, but we were a team, and more so a family, and that I would never want to change.
That is all.
Westie<3
And let me tell you, I was both excited and but I was more sad than anything else.
Which is understandable, after all, it was going to be my first and final year.
Before the game started, my coach informed me that I would not be starting, which is understandable, I got a concussion the first game of the official season. The worst part about not starting however, is the wait, the wait to see whether or not I would play the last game... of possibly my entire life.
Suddenly, I got the call. My coach called me over just after half time and said to me " West you're in". And that is all I needed to hear.
The cheers I received while running onto the feel made me want to burst, I was proud to be apart of this team, and to be running onto the field, our home field, to play this game that we had all worked so very hard for.
The whistle blew, and I was ready to go. I had spent two and a half weeks sitting around watching everyone else play the sport that I truly loved, and that was hard. Today, I was playing and nothing was going to stop me-- Even #15, she was HUGE... even compared to me... and I'm a little tank.
So I ran, I never realized how much I liked to run... I had this stupid scrum cap on my head however, preventing my hair from blowing in the wind... BUT ANYWAY... I ran.. tackled, and ran some more.
We soon had a line out, they called for me.. and I ran, darting from left to right dodging players.. everything is a bit of a blur from then however, because I passed it to my friend and well, WE SCORED! I am partially deaf because of that try now, although I must admit I do love to hear Sweet screaming for dear life in my ear with happiness!
The game continued on, and we put up a fight, and I'm sure they weren't expecting one, after all, they had beat us two days before.
As the final whistle blew I realized that our season had come to an abrupt halt. It was over, and I tell you I was sad.
But I then I looked back and realized that I would never change a thing, the players, the coaches, the conditioning, even my concussion, it was all and experience.
As we celebrated that night at a local restaurant, I realized that I had been apart of a fine organization of talented players. we had had some rough times, injuries, and some bad refs, but we were a team, and more so a family, and that I would never want to change.
That is all.
Westie<3
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