Wow. This Saturday my Cousin West 2/5 is getting married.
It makes me in a way feel super old.
But then again, look how old he should feel.
When I started to think about the kind of thing I would write about I thought about this very topic, trying to DECIDE what to write about, and then it hit me. Decision making and how very easy or difficult in may be.
Since I was a little girl, I had a hard time making decisions. Even though I am getting better at it, I still have a really tough time deciding what is right, what is wrong, and what is best for me, not for everyone else.
When I was that little chubby girl with short hair, I often found that my personal decisions reflected those that I was trying to please. Always. I find now, when looking back, that if I had made different decisions as a child, that I may have been a lot happier, and had enjoyed my elementary- middle- early high school years a lot better.
I was a people pleaser and now that I look back, I am really disappointed that I cared so much that in a way, changed my own self to make other people happy.
There are some things that I am dead set on. Things that people could never sway me on, and there are things that I am still indecisive about.
These are things that I am sure of.
1- God is real, no questions asked
2-waiting until you are ready to do something
3- staying pure until marriage
4- being true to yourself
5- be truthful, not matter what the consequence
6- drugs should be left alone and not used
7- privacy is important
8- not putting others needs above my own
9- being certain of information before sharing
10- being kind
and so many more, but those are some things that really make me who I am, and that isn't about to change.
There are things that I am unsure of too, but for privacy, I have decided ( note decision) not to share, at least not now.
After I endured several rough friend ships and relationships, I decided that things had to change. I had to be come less irrational, and had to become wiser when it came to people.
I made this decision at a youth event in town called Springforth a few years ago, near the end of my grade 10 year, and I tell you, it was when my overall decision making became a lot better. And trust me, I needed it. In a way I felt as if my life was a downward spiral, but one decision made my life so great, so amazing, that since then, I realize that somethings very easy decide based on my newly found character that comes from me, being me.
My life today obviously had daily decisions that effect who I am, but I take them all in my stride. As an example, how I react to different people and situations in my workplace, depends on how I decide they are going to be. You can determine how your own goes by what you decide, sure, there will be some short falls along the way, and life isn't always perfect, but if you make the best decision for you, and only you, there is no turning back.
Regardless of what may happen, your life is controlled by you, even if there are things along that way that you may think that can shoot you. This isn't true. If you DECIDE to let them effect you they will, if not, well you made your decision, and life continues.
It's not hard to make decisions when you know what your values are. ~Roy Disney
That is all.
Westie<3
