My God, Oh God
Your spirit fills my soul, you help me in times of trouble
You help see that when something is wrong
You are there.
You help me see that You are always there.
Thank you for taking the worry off of me.
You are so very amazing.
Thank you again.
God You are amazing.
Show others the same victory that you have shown me.
That is all.
Westie<3
Monday, October 11, 2010
I Don't Know
I’m worried and scared
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m paranoid, and I am worried
and I feel so retarded
I am finished with this nonsense.
I am done playing this game.
I tried so hard, and I don’t think I should have invested my time.
God help me, I need help now, give me the strength, and the power to get through this.
Because I am guarding my heart from now on. Here I go.
Thank you.
that is all.
Westie<3
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m paranoid, and I am worried
and I feel so retarded
I am finished with this nonsense.
I am done playing this game.
I tried so hard, and I don’t think I should have invested my time.
God help me, I need help now, give me the strength, and the power to get through this.
Because I am guarding my heart from now on. Here I go.
Thank you.
that is all.
Westie<3
I Don't Know
I’m worried and scared
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m paranoid, and I am worried
and I feel so retarded
I am finished with this nonsense.
I am done playing this game.
I tried so hard, and I don’t think I should have invested my time.
God help me, I need help now, give me the strength, and the power to get through this.
Because I am guarding my heart from now on. Here I go.
Thank you.
that is all.
Westie<3
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m paranoid, and I am worried
and I feel so retarded
I am finished with this nonsense.
I am done playing this game.
I tried so hard, and I don’t think I should have invested my time.
God help me, I need help now, give me the strength, and the power to get through this.
Because I am guarding my heart from now on. Here I go.
Thank you.
that is all.
Westie<3
Often.
Often people think that my life is perfect.
I tend to disagree with this fact.
You know how when you see someone extremely beautiful you automatically think, wow, they have their life completely together. When in reality they are struggling with a disease, or bulimia, or some sort of depression.
Things are not always as they appear.
Like me for example. I often put on a good show to make it seem like my life is good. I have been told that I am one of the happiest people that someone will every meet. Well you know what? Yes. I am happy, but you know what else? I have issues too.
I am terrified right now. You have no idea. My mother is not all that well, she is dealing with a great amount of pain all throughout her body. She has issues with her foot, her hands, her internal, you name it. And I have no idea how she is making it through. I don't even know how long she will be able to stand. Her pain in her foot is so bad, she is afraid that she won't be able to walk within the next year.
What scares me even more is that my poppy ( her father) died at age 70. My mum is close to 60, which means that if her symptoms continue, I could lose her. and I can't live without my mother. There is no way.
I am so scared. I put on a front,I try to help everyone with their problems, and I do, I have helped so many people through so much. But in reality, I need help too but I don't want help, I want to be able to face these hard times so in the end, if someone else is struggling, I will be able to help them in the same way.
My mum needs to overcome this. She is a strong woman with much faith. She believes in God, he is her saviour. And now she needs his help more than anything else. I often wonder if I am why she is not getting better. But then I realize that it is just satan trying to get into my head and ruin my thoughts. He wants me to blame God. But no matter what, I will not.
Because I know God can, and will heal my mother. She has so much left to do in her life.
This is where I do one of the bravest things I have ever done.
I am asking for prayer. Prayer from anyone who reads this blog, prayers from anyone who cares. God will answer. Please tell your friends to pray for my mother.
The next time you assume perfection, think of this blog. And whether you like it or not, everyone has problems, and everyone needs prayer. So rather than send a look of jealously to a person, or feelings of envy or hate. Pray instead, and see the amazing ways that God works.
God Bless You All.
Jesus loves you, and so do I.
that is all.
Westie<3
I tend to disagree with this fact.
You know how when you see someone extremely beautiful you automatically think, wow, they have their life completely together. When in reality they are struggling with a disease, or bulimia, or some sort of depression.
Things are not always as they appear.
Like me for example. I often put on a good show to make it seem like my life is good. I have been told that I am one of the happiest people that someone will every meet. Well you know what? Yes. I am happy, but you know what else? I have issues too.
I am terrified right now. You have no idea. My mother is not all that well, she is dealing with a great amount of pain all throughout her body. She has issues with her foot, her hands, her internal, you name it. And I have no idea how she is making it through. I don't even know how long she will be able to stand. Her pain in her foot is so bad, she is afraid that she won't be able to walk within the next year.
What scares me even more is that my poppy ( her father) died at age 70. My mum is close to 60, which means that if her symptoms continue, I could lose her. and I can't live without my mother. There is no way.
I am so scared. I put on a front,I try to help everyone with their problems, and I do, I have helped so many people through so much. But in reality, I need help too but I don't want help, I want to be able to face these hard times so in the end, if someone else is struggling, I will be able to help them in the same way.
My mum needs to overcome this. She is a strong woman with much faith. She believes in God, he is her saviour. And now she needs his help more than anything else. I often wonder if I am why she is not getting better. But then I realize that it is just satan trying to get into my head and ruin my thoughts. He wants me to blame God. But no matter what, I will not.
Because I know God can, and will heal my mother. She has so much left to do in her life.
This is where I do one of the bravest things I have ever done.
I am asking for prayer. Prayer from anyone who reads this blog, prayers from anyone who cares. God will answer. Please tell your friends to pray for my mother.
The next time you assume perfection, think of this blog. And whether you like it or not, everyone has problems, and everyone needs prayer. So rather than send a look of jealously to a person, or feelings of envy or hate. Pray instead, and see the amazing ways that God works.
God Bless You All.
Jesus loves you, and so do I.
that is all.
Westie<3
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