"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."
~ Unknown
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Life's Lessons Never Stop
Have you ever had a point in your life where you questioned something even though you really didn't want to?
Well, that happened to me last evening. But that's not the exact direction that I am heading in today.
Today I want to talk about life's lessons.
Last night I learned that you have to trust no matter how convincing a person you hardly knows argument may be. Last night my feelings were in a way hurt, and I felt hurt to think that someone would say something to more or less just get a reaction out of me, and that really bothered me. A lot, because I put something special on the line to listen to this obvious liar.
Thankfully, my inner sense of worry did not even show in this incident, which to me, shows whether or not this person told the truth or not.
And my gut what thankfully saying that this was untrue, and that everything was fine. Just as I wanted to believe, and just as I believe now.
As humans, day by day we learn something. Just like that expression " we learn something new everyday " . How true is that?
You may not always notice that you have learned something, you may not even want to realize it. But if you look back on the past two weeks, just think about how much has changed for yourself, how much has gone through your unconscious mind.
Amazing isn't it?
You learn what someone likes, what they done, you learn which place at home is the warmest, or what you notice about your appearance. You learn a song, a new word, an expression. What you learn is endless, and for that reason we are so blessed.
But at the same time, sometimes you just don't want to learn some of those life lessons. I believe that comment is self explanatory.
Westie<3
Well, that happened to me last evening. But that's not the exact direction that I am heading in today.
Today I want to talk about life's lessons.
Last night I learned that you have to trust no matter how convincing a person you hardly knows argument may be. Last night my feelings were in a way hurt, and I felt hurt to think that someone would say something to more or less just get a reaction out of me, and that really bothered me. A lot, because I put something special on the line to listen to this obvious liar.
Thankfully, my inner sense of worry did not even show in this incident, which to me, shows whether or not this person told the truth or not.
And my gut what thankfully saying that this was untrue, and that everything was fine. Just as I wanted to believe, and just as I believe now.
As humans, day by day we learn something. Just like that expression " we learn something new everyday " . How true is that?
You may not always notice that you have learned something, you may not even want to realize it. But if you look back on the past two weeks, just think about how much has changed for yourself, how much has gone through your unconscious mind.
Amazing isn't it?
You learn what someone likes, what they done, you learn which place at home is the warmest, or what you notice about your appearance. You learn a song, a new word, an expression. What you learn is endless, and for that reason we are so blessed.
But at the same time, sometimes you just don't want to learn some of those life lessons. I believe that comment is self explanatory.
Westie<3
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Happiness
I am a person who always has desired happiness.
I look for in in friendship, relationships, and in life itself. But somehow, I able never able to ever find happiness successfully.
But lately, something in me has clicked, it's as if I have never had a bad, and it is as if nothing can ever go wrong. And I believe that there are various reasons as to why I am so freaking happy these days.
One, would have to be university. I don't know what I would have done if I had to face another year of high school. It is just so juvenile and it is like everyone's goal is to just be mean, spread around gossip all the time. It always used to bother me so much, and I am so very glad I am no longer dealing with that kind of nonsense.
University has also lead to some of the most amazing experiences of my entire life. I have met so many people, and have done so many crazy things that I can hardly even believe it. I have raced around, worked like a maniac, and learned to multi task like a pro. I have made time, fought time, and gave time all to do what I love in my life.
Two would have to be the relationships that I have already made. I don't know if I could possibly be surviving university without some of the friendships that I have maintained over the past few weeks. Some of which I know I will never forget.
Three, would definitely have to be some of the things that I have left behind and moved on from. I don't think that if I hadn't left some of the baggage behind, I wouldn't be where I am today with such joy. You all know about the friendship that went to very wrong for me just a short time ago, well, about a month ago, I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years. And to be honest, it was one of the best things I have ever done in my life.
I think near the end I felt more sorry for him, we weren't on the same level of thinking, and to be honest, I was more comfortable just "being" in the relationship than actually wanted to. Now that I am "free" per say things have already changed. I am able to go through my life now and not be afraid to talk to certain people in fears that someone will get jealous or made. I'm not afraid to be myself anymore because I know that people love me for me, and I no longer have to pretend to be someone I'm not. I was feeling trapped, but now, I am happy, happy to be me, to like who I am, and to want to improve upon things in myself to make myself a better person and to grow even more in myself.
Because you never know what God is planning for your tomorrow.
The fourth and final thing that has made a difference in my life is God. He has showed me that through being me, I can reach other people, he showed me through my prayers to him, some of the choices I have made as late. I am extremely thankful that I have that relationship with God, to help me get through the day, it is an ultimate blessing.
Happiness is hard to find, but once you are there, life never seems better.
That is all.
Westie<3
I look for in in friendship, relationships, and in life itself. But somehow, I able never able to ever find happiness successfully.
But lately, something in me has clicked, it's as if I have never had a bad, and it is as if nothing can ever go wrong. And I believe that there are various reasons as to why I am so freaking happy these days.
One, would have to be university. I don't know what I would have done if I had to face another year of high school. It is just so juvenile and it is like everyone's goal is to just be mean, spread around gossip all the time. It always used to bother me so much, and I am so very glad I am no longer dealing with that kind of nonsense.
University has also lead to some of the most amazing experiences of my entire life. I have met so many people, and have done so many crazy things that I can hardly even believe it. I have raced around, worked like a maniac, and learned to multi task like a pro. I have made time, fought time, and gave time all to do what I love in my life.
Two would have to be the relationships that I have already made. I don't know if I could possibly be surviving university without some of the friendships that I have maintained over the past few weeks. Some of which I know I will never forget.
Three, would definitely have to be some of the things that I have left behind and moved on from. I don't think that if I hadn't left some of the baggage behind, I wouldn't be where I am today with such joy. You all know about the friendship that went to very wrong for me just a short time ago, well, about a month ago, I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years. And to be honest, it was one of the best things I have ever done in my life.
I think near the end I felt more sorry for him, we weren't on the same level of thinking, and to be honest, I was more comfortable just "being" in the relationship than actually wanted to. Now that I am "free" per say things have already changed. I am able to go through my life now and not be afraid to talk to certain people in fears that someone will get jealous or made. I'm not afraid to be myself anymore because I know that people love me for me, and I no longer have to pretend to be someone I'm not. I was feeling trapped, but now, I am happy, happy to be me, to like who I am, and to want to improve upon things in myself to make myself a better person and to grow even more in myself.
Because you never know what God is planning for your tomorrow.
The fourth and final thing that has made a difference in my life is God. He has showed me that through being me, I can reach other people, he showed me through my prayers to him, some of the choices I have made as late. I am extremely thankful that I have that relationship with God, to help me get through the day, it is an ultimate blessing.
Happiness is hard to find, but once you are there, life never seems better.
That is all.
Westie<3
Monday, September 13, 2010
Life Keeps on Rolling
Oh my goodness
I am a full blown university student...
AND I LOVE IT WITH MY ENTIRE LIFE!
The amount of change that has taken place in this past month, and end of last month is actually extraordinary!
I can hardly believe what I have done with my life in such a short amount of time.
As you all known, I am a Christian, and I since camp my walk has been even stronger as I have mentioned in just the past fews blogs I have written. God has recently told me to make some choices, and clearly, they have been the right ones. I won't go into detail, but a lot of things have changed with my thoughts recently, and I am very glad. I am glad because of the opportunities that have come out of it. And boy, am I thankful.
I was feeling trapped for a while, trapped within myself. Trapped in some of the relationships that I have been have with different people, and that just wasn't working for me. I was often found to be in a depressed state of mind, and feeling as if the feeling wouldn't go away.
At that point I realized that I had to fix this problem, but the issue was that I didn't know what the problem was, and that scared me a bit. As the days went by God revealed the problem to me, and I realized that I would have to make a change and fast. I couldn't handle university with what I was dealing with.
More or less my problem was i was unsure about things and I didn't like it. I had been expressing something that hadn't been feeling in months, since at least May, and I think that was one of my problems. I needed to change things, fortunately , my heart had moved on months before I actually made my choice of what to do.
Now I am happy. I am pleased to say after months and months of sadness things have improved, and I am once again happy with who I am. I have made new friend, grown up, and went my own way. It was awesome , and it has been awesome.
What a life I have but hey! I am not complaining because I have been so blessed with so many things, and it is just great how one amazing person can reveal so much to one child out of billions.
That is all,
Westie<3
who needs one eyebrow?:)
I am a full blown university student...
AND I LOVE IT WITH MY ENTIRE LIFE!
The amount of change that has taken place in this past month, and end of last month is actually extraordinary!
I can hardly believe what I have done with my life in such a short amount of time.
As you all known, I am a Christian, and I since camp my walk has been even stronger as I have mentioned in just the past fews blogs I have written. God has recently told me to make some choices, and clearly, they have been the right ones. I won't go into detail, but a lot of things have changed with my thoughts recently, and I am very glad. I am glad because of the opportunities that have come out of it. And boy, am I thankful.
I was feeling trapped for a while, trapped within myself. Trapped in some of the relationships that I have been have with different people, and that just wasn't working for me. I was often found to be in a depressed state of mind, and feeling as if the feeling wouldn't go away.
At that point I realized that I had to fix this problem, but the issue was that I didn't know what the problem was, and that scared me a bit. As the days went by God revealed the problem to me, and I realized that I would have to make a change and fast. I couldn't handle university with what I was dealing with.
More or less my problem was i was unsure about things and I didn't like it. I had been expressing something that hadn't been feeling in months, since at least May, and I think that was one of my problems. I needed to change things, fortunately , my heart had moved on months before I actually made my choice of what to do.
Now I am happy. I am pleased to say after months and months of sadness things have improved, and I am once again happy with who I am. I have made new friend, grown up, and went my own way. It was awesome , and it has been awesome.
What a life I have but hey! I am not complaining because I have been so blessed with so many things, and it is just great how one amazing person can reveal so much to one child out of billions.
That is all,
Westie<3
who needs one eyebrow?:)
Friday, September 3, 2010
Time Does Change Things- And So Does the Power of God
Wow.
holy moses, sweet niblets, mother of all that's holy and good, mother lickin' chicken, what the heck..
You all obviously get my point..
My day today, well, let's just say, didn't start off all that pleasant...
I was feeling extremely down, and to be honest, I'm not sure what it was exactly... and I'm still not sure.
I have times where I don't feel like myself, and I guess today was one of those day, because man... everything was hitting me hard, everything was upsetting me, everything was just feeling like AHHH GET ME OUT OF HERE.
That's how I felt, and that's how I spent almost my entire friday morning/ afternoon feeling... and it sucked. Hardcore.
Everything seemed to touch me the wrong way. On the way to work this morning I "felt" that my mum was over evaluating me, that she kept pushing me to do things.
When I got to work, I felt insanely sick, and I was just so tired, and so agitated, I had a hard time staring at the computer screen, entering data into the computer-- copy, paste repeat, copy, paste, repeat, copy, paste, repeat. Endless, endless, endless.
I suddenly became overwhelmed with everything. A familiar song called "For Good" from the musical Wicked cam onto my Ipod.
I don't always listen to lyrics of a song very well, I just happen to listen a few times and just sing along within a few times of playing the song. For Good is one of my recent favourites, and I just learned it like I would any other song. But today something happened, I took the time, sat there, staring at the wall and listened.
And here is what I heard--
"'Ive heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good "
Let me just tell you, that my eyes quickly became filled with tears. I thought of everything. The friendship lost, the relationships, the hardships, the messes I had gotten myself into. All of it, EVERYTHING. And I couldn't hold back. I sat for a while, and I just thought. If only something right now could go right... anything, I would take it as a sign from God to say- "Sharilyn I am here everything is alright, and you are not alone".
I never thought the message would come through. I got home, and tried to enjoy myself, because for now I am done work, but something was still holding on to my heart and just dragging me down.
After supper had finished, and everything was said and done, everyone was relaxing, and I was fixing my Itunes up. When suddenly my ex soggie pops up on facebook chat.
This was the second time that it had happened and I was like- "oh no.. just what I need right now honestly, another worry added to the list". But as it turned out, it wasn't a worry at all.
He apologized.
I was ABSOLUTELY shocked. Never in a million years would I have expected that to happen. Ever.
But it did.
And there was one thing that made that happen, and that thing happened to be God.
People grow up yes, but they don't just happen to grow up on their own, its not only the path that they have chosen or the lessons that they have given themselves that make them grow up.
It's not only that.
It's also God.
You see, God has changed me-- I wasn't always this nice girl. I had a bout of depression for the longest time, and it took me a while to get over. I was messed up after my ex and I broke up... I didn't know what to think. One thing reached out to me though, and that thing was God. Without him, I would not be the way I am today, nor would I be here period. Time changes people yes. But so, does the power of God.
That is all.
Westie<3
holy moses, sweet niblets, mother of all that's holy and good, mother lickin' chicken, what the heck..
You all obviously get my point..
My day today, well, let's just say, didn't start off all that pleasant...
I was feeling extremely down, and to be honest, I'm not sure what it was exactly... and I'm still not sure.
I have times where I don't feel like myself, and I guess today was one of those day, because man... everything was hitting me hard, everything was upsetting me, everything was just feeling like AHHH GET ME OUT OF HERE.
That's how I felt, and that's how I spent almost my entire friday morning/ afternoon feeling... and it sucked. Hardcore.
Everything seemed to touch me the wrong way. On the way to work this morning I "felt" that my mum was over evaluating me, that she kept pushing me to do things.
When I got to work, I felt insanely sick, and I was just so tired, and so agitated, I had a hard time staring at the computer screen, entering data into the computer-- copy, paste repeat, copy, paste, repeat, copy, paste, repeat. Endless, endless, endless.
I suddenly became overwhelmed with everything. A familiar song called "For Good" from the musical Wicked cam onto my Ipod.
I don't always listen to lyrics of a song very well, I just happen to listen a few times and just sing along within a few times of playing the song. For Good is one of my recent favourites, and I just learned it like I would any other song. But today something happened, I took the time, sat there, staring at the wall and listened.
And here is what I heard--
"'Ive heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good "
Let me just tell you, that my eyes quickly became filled with tears. I thought of everything. The friendship lost, the relationships, the hardships, the messes I had gotten myself into. All of it, EVERYTHING. And I couldn't hold back. I sat for a while, and I just thought. If only something right now could go right... anything, I would take it as a sign from God to say- "Sharilyn I am here everything is alright, and you are not alone".
I never thought the message would come through. I got home, and tried to enjoy myself, because for now I am done work, but something was still holding on to my heart and just dragging me down.
After supper had finished, and everything was said and done, everyone was relaxing, and I was fixing my Itunes up. When suddenly my ex soggie pops up on facebook chat.
This was the second time that it had happened and I was like- "oh no.. just what I need right now honestly, another worry added to the list". But as it turned out, it wasn't a worry at all.
He apologized.
I was ABSOLUTELY shocked. Never in a million years would I have expected that to happen. Ever.
But it did.
And there was one thing that made that happen, and that thing happened to be God.
People grow up yes, but they don't just happen to grow up on their own, its not only the path that they have chosen or the lessons that they have given themselves that make them grow up.
It's not only that.
It's also God.
You see, God has changed me-- I wasn't always this nice girl. I had a bout of depression for the longest time, and it took me a while to get over. I was messed up after my ex and I broke up... I didn't know what to think. One thing reached out to me though, and that thing was God. Without him, I would not be the way I am today, nor would I be here period. Time changes people yes. But so, does the power of God.
That is all.
Westie<3
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