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Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
The Worry is Gone.
My God, Oh God
Your spirit fills my soul, you help me in times of trouble
You help see that when something is wrong
You are there.
You help me see that You are always there.
Thank you for taking the worry off of me.
You are so very amazing.
Thank you again.
God You are amazing.
Show others the same victory that you have shown me.
That is all.
Westie<3
Your spirit fills my soul, you help me in times of trouble
You help see that when something is wrong
You are there.
You help me see that You are always there.
Thank you for taking the worry off of me.
You are so very amazing.
Thank you again.
God You are amazing.
Show others the same victory that you have shown me.
That is all.
Westie<3
I Don't Know
I’m worried and scared
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m paranoid, and I am worried
and I feel so retarded
I am finished with this nonsense.
I am done playing this game.
I tried so hard, and I don’t think I should have invested my time.
God help me, I need help now, give me the strength, and the power to get through this.
Because I am guarding my heart from now on. Here I go.
Thank you.
that is all.
Westie<3
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m paranoid, and I am worried
and I feel so retarded
I am finished with this nonsense.
I am done playing this game.
I tried so hard, and I don’t think I should have invested my time.
God help me, I need help now, give me the strength, and the power to get through this.
Because I am guarding my heart from now on. Here I go.
Thank you.
that is all.
Westie<3
I Don't Know
I’m worried and scared
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m paranoid, and I am worried
and I feel so retarded
I am finished with this nonsense.
I am done playing this game.
I tried so hard, and I don’t think I should have invested my time.
God help me, I need help now, give me the strength, and the power to get through this.
Because I am guarding my heart from now on. Here I go.
Thank you.
that is all.
Westie<3
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m paranoid, and I am worried
and I feel so retarded
I am finished with this nonsense.
I am done playing this game.
I tried so hard, and I don’t think I should have invested my time.
God help me, I need help now, give me the strength, and the power to get through this.
Because I am guarding my heart from now on. Here I go.
Thank you.
that is all.
Westie<3
Often.
Often people think that my life is perfect.
I tend to disagree with this fact.
You know how when you see someone extremely beautiful you automatically think, wow, they have their life completely together. When in reality they are struggling with a disease, or bulimia, or some sort of depression.
Things are not always as they appear.
Like me for example. I often put on a good show to make it seem like my life is good. I have been told that I am one of the happiest people that someone will every meet. Well you know what? Yes. I am happy, but you know what else? I have issues too.
I am terrified right now. You have no idea. My mother is not all that well, she is dealing with a great amount of pain all throughout her body. She has issues with her foot, her hands, her internal, you name it. And I have no idea how she is making it through. I don't even know how long she will be able to stand. Her pain in her foot is so bad, she is afraid that she won't be able to walk within the next year.
What scares me even more is that my poppy ( her father) died at age 70. My mum is close to 60, which means that if her symptoms continue, I could lose her. and I can't live without my mother. There is no way.
I am so scared. I put on a front,I try to help everyone with their problems, and I do, I have helped so many people through so much. But in reality, I need help too but I don't want help, I want to be able to face these hard times so in the end, if someone else is struggling, I will be able to help them in the same way.
My mum needs to overcome this. She is a strong woman with much faith. She believes in God, he is her saviour. And now she needs his help more than anything else. I often wonder if I am why she is not getting better. But then I realize that it is just satan trying to get into my head and ruin my thoughts. He wants me to blame God. But no matter what, I will not.
Because I know God can, and will heal my mother. She has so much left to do in her life.
This is where I do one of the bravest things I have ever done.
I am asking for prayer. Prayer from anyone who reads this blog, prayers from anyone who cares. God will answer. Please tell your friends to pray for my mother.
The next time you assume perfection, think of this blog. And whether you like it or not, everyone has problems, and everyone needs prayer. So rather than send a look of jealously to a person, or feelings of envy or hate. Pray instead, and see the amazing ways that God works.
God Bless You All.
Jesus loves you, and so do I.
that is all.
Westie<3
I tend to disagree with this fact.
You know how when you see someone extremely beautiful you automatically think, wow, they have their life completely together. When in reality they are struggling with a disease, or bulimia, or some sort of depression.
Things are not always as they appear.
Like me for example. I often put on a good show to make it seem like my life is good. I have been told that I am one of the happiest people that someone will every meet. Well you know what? Yes. I am happy, but you know what else? I have issues too.
I am terrified right now. You have no idea. My mother is not all that well, she is dealing with a great amount of pain all throughout her body. She has issues with her foot, her hands, her internal, you name it. And I have no idea how she is making it through. I don't even know how long she will be able to stand. Her pain in her foot is so bad, she is afraid that she won't be able to walk within the next year.
What scares me even more is that my poppy ( her father) died at age 70. My mum is close to 60, which means that if her symptoms continue, I could lose her. and I can't live without my mother. There is no way.
I am so scared. I put on a front,I try to help everyone with their problems, and I do, I have helped so many people through so much. But in reality, I need help too but I don't want help, I want to be able to face these hard times so in the end, if someone else is struggling, I will be able to help them in the same way.
My mum needs to overcome this. She is a strong woman with much faith. She believes in God, he is her saviour. And now she needs his help more than anything else. I often wonder if I am why she is not getting better. But then I realize that it is just satan trying to get into my head and ruin my thoughts. He wants me to blame God. But no matter what, I will not.
Because I know God can, and will heal my mother. She has so much left to do in her life.
This is where I do one of the bravest things I have ever done.
I am asking for prayer. Prayer from anyone who reads this blog, prayers from anyone who cares. God will answer. Please tell your friends to pray for my mother.
The next time you assume perfection, think of this blog. And whether you like it or not, everyone has problems, and everyone needs prayer. So rather than send a look of jealously to a person, or feelings of envy or hate. Pray instead, and see the amazing ways that God works.
God Bless You All.
Jesus loves you, and so do I.
that is all.
Westie<3
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Thinking... Oh No
I was just thinking
What if I had chosen a different path earlier on
What if I hadn't kept my morals
Would I be who I am today?
Or would I hate the person I had become.
Would I have different friends?
Would I be in a different place?
Or would I be incomplete?
Would I change someones life...
Would I make someone cry
Would I just want to ... die?
No.
No.
No.
My life lived today, the the path I chose
Sure, there has been ups and downs,
but just the same, I would not have my life, any...other... way.
Because my path and God, is what made me...
ME.
That is all.
Westie<3
What if I had chosen a different path earlier on
What if I hadn't kept my morals
Would I be who I am today?
Or would I hate the person I had become.
Would I have different friends?
Would I be in a different place?
Or would I be incomplete?
Would I change someones life...
Would I make someone cry
Would I just want to ... die?
No.
No.
No.
My life lived today, the the path I chose
Sure, there has been ups and downs,
but just the same, I would not have my life, any...other... way.
Because my path and God, is what made me...
ME.
That is all.
Westie<3
Family
I have kept my promise and am writing about something I am thankful for 1 month
Today, being Thanksgiving I spent a great deal of time with my family.
That is what I want to express my thanks to this particular day.
God has given me one of the most amazing families in the entire world.
My immediate family consists of my mother, my father and myself. My brother recently moved back home ( 2 years ago) and brought his wife with him. Together they have two children, and they are the joy of my life.
I grew up more or less an only child because both of my brothers lived far away. For this reason, I spent a lot of time with my Dad's brother's children. What a blessing ( and while I was younger, a curse haha ) they have been to me.
Growing up, I had this bond with those 5 boys in my family that I will never be able to replace. Sure, I was teased an tortured to no end, but through all that I knew that they loved me.
I went to my Uncle and Aunt's house tonight for Thanksgiving dinner, and it felt like it always does, like home. These people have cared for me since day one, this is because we are a family, and without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.
You see, God blessed me with this family because he knew that without them I could not be strong, I could not be able, and I would not be me. Without my amazing family, I wouldn't be able to face another day.
I am incredibly thankful that God created these amazing people in my family.
Thanks God
You always know what's best for us, although it may not seem it at times.
That is all.
Westie<3
Today, being Thanksgiving I spent a great deal of time with my family.
That is what I want to express my thanks to this particular day.
God has given me one of the most amazing families in the entire world.
My immediate family consists of my mother, my father and myself. My brother recently moved back home ( 2 years ago) and brought his wife with him. Together they have two children, and they are the joy of my life.
I grew up more or less an only child because both of my brothers lived far away. For this reason, I spent a lot of time with my Dad's brother's children. What a blessing ( and while I was younger, a curse haha ) they have been to me.
Growing up, I had this bond with those 5 boys in my family that I will never be able to replace. Sure, I was teased an tortured to no end, but through all that I knew that they loved me.
I went to my Uncle and Aunt's house tonight for Thanksgiving dinner, and it felt like it always does, like home. These people have cared for me since day one, this is because we are a family, and without them, I wouldn't be who I am today.
You see, God blessed me with this family because he knew that without them I could not be strong, I could not be able, and I would not be me. Without my amazing family, I wouldn't be able to face another day.
I am incredibly thankful that God created these amazing people in my family.
Thanks God
You always know what's best for us, although it may not seem it at times.
That is all.
Westie<3
Friday, October 8, 2010
Answers.
Wow. Just Wow.
I don't think I have been able to properly breathe the past week and a half.
SO much has happened all at one time!! I can hardly believe it.
Seriously, I don't know if my life could be anymore crazy.
This week alone, I was running for first year rep, I was writing numerous papers, I was exercising, I was keeping up with my family, I was teaching sunday school, I was studying, I was reading,I was keeping up with friends, I was LIVING.
It was just plain insanity! I can't actually believe that I made it through this week, and to be honest, the past few weeks without burning out completely.
Fortunately for me, it is Thanksgiving here is Canada this weekend, so I have time to totally veg. My parents are going away on saturday to the island, I am going to have a chance to recuperate from this week of just plain insanity.
BUT
The good thing here is, I finished an insane amount of work, I passed about 50098604763073476 papers, I feel so healthy and happy from exercising, and I am all around just enjoying life period. Life is good, and so is God.
I read a really interesting quote today it said “Were there no God, we would be in this glorious world with grateful hearts: and no one to thank”. This was quote is from Christina Rossetti, and how true is this?
Where would we be in this world if there was no God?
Well, I can tell you one thing.
We wouldn't be here. Period.
How often to we look on this amazing world we are living in and just look at all the negative? I know that when it rains sometimes I often find myself saying " Man, I wish it would stop raining" and as soon as it stops raining I catch myself saying " It it WAY too hot out here, where is the rain when we need it".
There is such beauty surrounding us, like, think about all the grains of sand, all of the grass on the ground, all of the dirt, the clouds the sky, the trees, the flowers, the list goes on. We all take advantage of it, and it makes me sad.
I went for a walk the other day with a guy I am currently dating, and I don't think I really noticed the amazing pieces of God's creation surrounding me. I mean, I see it all the time, why would I ?
It's hard, trust me I understand, but as I think about it more and more, I realize that I myself need to observe, and take note, and appreciate what God has created so much more.
Thank is my goal from now on. Every two days, I will write a blog expressing one thing that I find so very amazing that God has created and why.
I love you all
That is all.
Westie<3
I don't think I have been able to properly breathe the past week and a half.
SO much has happened all at one time!! I can hardly believe it.
Seriously, I don't know if my life could be anymore crazy.
This week alone, I was running for first year rep, I was writing numerous papers, I was exercising, I was keeping up with my family, I was teaching sunday school, I was studying, I was reading,I was keeping up with friends, I was LIVING.
It was just plain insanity! I can't actually believe that I made it through this week, and to be honest, the past few weeks without burning out completely.
Fortunately for me, it is Thanksgiving here is Canada this weekend, so I have time to totally veg. My parents are going away on saturday to the island, I am going to have a chance to recuperate from this week of just plain insanity.
BUT
The good thing here is, I finished an insane amount of work, I passed about 50098604763073476 papers, I feel so healthy and happy from exercising, and I am all around just enjoying life period. Life is good, and so is God.
I read a really interesting quote today it said “Were there no God, we would be in this glorious world with grateful hearts: and no one to thank”. This was quote is from Christina Rossetti, and how true is this?
Where would we be in this world if there was no God?
Well, I can tell you one thing.
We wouldn't be here. Period.
How often to we look on this amazing world we are living in and just look at all the negative? I know that when it rains sometimes I often find myself saying " Man, I wish it would stop raining" and as soon as it stops raining I catch myself saying " It it WAY too hot out here, where is the rain when we need it".
There is such beauty surrounding us, like, think about all the grains of sand, all of the grass on the ground, all of the dirt, the clouds the sky, the trees, the flowers, the list goes on. We all take advantage of it, and it makes me sad.
I went for a walk the other day with a guy I am currently dating, and I don't think I really noticed the amazing pieces of God's creation surrounding me. I mean, I see it all the time, why would I ?
It's hard, trust me I understand, but as I think about it more and more, I realize that I myself need to observe, and take note, and appreciate what God has created so much more.
Thank is my goal from now on. Every two days, I will write a blog expressing one thing that I find so very amazing that God has created and why.
I love you all
That is all.
Westie<3
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