The Last Day

Sadness
That's how I felt today.
There was a reason for this, it was the last day "officially" of my highschool career.
I figured that I would have been happy when this day came, but the truth it that it isn't the case whatsoever.

As I walked into the building of all buildings this morning, a wave of sadness washed over me. It was like I had never felt so emotional, think about something like school.

To think that now I was dealing with such a sadness was so hard.

Each class was a painful reminder that it was in fact the very last day ever.

But at the same time, I felt as if the day would never end.

Langdo and I left during third period to go to lunch, at which point we decided to throw a going away party for Hudson.

We ate, got chips/ pop etc.

The 4th rolled around nothing happened.

Then came 5th.

The class and some friends of the class came and surprised Hudson. Which was awesome.

But then, something happened to me, something that doesn't happen to me ever. I started to cry.

I tried to inform everyone that I had no tear ducts and that it was not possible, but I just couldn't prove it. The fact was I was sad, and I could no longer hide it. I could no longer be the tough rugby player that everyone knows and loves, when really I am this HUGE softy and to be honest, I don't how to handle it.

The sad thing is is that no one really knows me enough to know how sensitive I am.
Except one person now, and believe it or not, that person is Hudson.

For some reason, somewhere along the way, I was able to feel comfortable and shed those few tears in my heart that were tearing me apart. So, I did.

After school had ended I just sat there for a while. I sat, and I sat, and I sat.

Finally, I got up and left. Walked to subway, with still a sad look on my face, and sadness in my eyes.

Thankfully for me Hudson kinda cheered me up, made me think of other things, so did Murray (haha) , and my own heart had to do a complete flip.

Still however, I am sad, but you see I am also happy, I am happy for a future, for new things, things will someday sculpt me for who I will be in the future.

That is all--

Westie<3